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Went out with the parents last Saturday. It’s always nice seeing them. They wanted to take these chairs we made them so many years ago. When we got them home we realized they need to be thrown away. So, we are making them new chairs as a surprise when they come back from Florida.

We talked about Adam. We discussed that it wasn’t fair what he does to his family. I was surprised my dad even said this. I know my mom gets sad when Adam and I fight or disagree. There just has to be solution this and I found one.

Yesterday, when I called my parents, they told me Adam tried to message me but I had blocked him everywhere even his phone number. They read the message to me, it went something like this: Hey Danielle, I am sorry. Whenever you are ready to have a conversation, reach out to me. You are my sister and I love you.

Yeah okay I was thinking. I just don’t want to disappoint my mom but I have to choose me. I don’t choose me often but for this time I have too. I wrote something that I hesitate to send but Jeff voice of reason was like. “You can’t let him keep treating you this way. He can’t contact you every time he just wants something”. That isn’t right, I agreed and sent it.

I told him, this year I will not be in contact with him. I gave him reason why I won’t because I was very hurt what he said 2 weeks ago and I no longer will be treated that way anymore. To give me space and I will talk to you when I feel ready to do so.

I also want to enforce that he CAN’T treat me like this in the future. Because no contact is terrible for him but that’s what he has been doing to me all this time and it isn’t right. I feel better when I don’t have contact with him. He doesn’t live rent free in my head for long. 2 weeks ago I was hurt but got over it in a few days. It’s nice not to be the one he can ghost and then come back for money usually. He needs to learn a lesson and this is a hard lesson he will have to learn because unlike all those other times, I am not giving in and choosing my mental health then pleasing any family member.

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Lots of things to hit me with my mental health. The first thing is I really wanted to go on that shot to lose weight and insurance wants to fight it. So, unsure if I would be able to get it.

Second, Adam asked for $700 dollars but not just me all the siblings and their spouses. Oh woes me bullshit. I left the chat. Then he said really nasty shit to me and told me we are not siblings anymore. That he is going to block me on all socials and delete all pics of me and him. He did in fact unfriend me on FB. So, I blocked him on everything. Phone number, Instagram and my YouTube channel. I DO NOT want him in my life. It hurt he said this just because I didn’t want to give him money which I don’t have. I think he is going to regret this decision because he can’t come back in my life for a very, very long time if ever.

After hearing that, I got stung by a wasp in my middle finger. Which everything just in today Friday, I cried a lot! I was in pain, mentally and physically.

I know it will get better. I have to work on my mental health, it’s struggle sometimes but I know I can. Also, my finger hurts.

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Celebrated my mom’s 70 birthday again last Saturday.

My sister made up stupid games to win prizes and I played and won no prizes. I have no idea why we can’t just hang out and chit chat without Chrissy bringing up games to play. She loves all those interactive games too. Ugh! Other than that I think my mom had a good time.

Jeff and I celebrated 18 years of marriage on September 15! Jeff got me this mug. I am in love with it! So cute! We went out and ate steak. Yum!

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Last Friday we celebrated mom’s 70’s birthday. We got her this:

The Gnome is a candle that smells amazing!! She loved both so much! Score! It was Jeff and I and my parents and we had a great time!

This Saturday is celebrate with all the siblings. I don’t want too. I don’t want to go to my sister’s house and celebrate. I feel a way about it, them in general. I don’t know. I rather not. But it’s for my mom so I am going.

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Wed Aug 27 was Jeff’s birthday! I can’t believe it, he turned 49. I remember when we were dating that we celebrated his 30th birthday! Time really goes by fast as one grows older. We had Stucc’s Pizza and cheese cake from….get this New York! Yeah Jeff ordered from NY. Which I find funny because his mom would always say this story where Jeff ordered cheese cake from NY. Here he did it again. LOL!!! It was really good though.

Happy birthday Jeff, love you!

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My mom is turning 70 on Sept 9. Mom was like plan a birthday for me. I said what do you want. We talked and I said I’ll ask Chrissy her suggestions. Message Chrissy and all I get is projection to me. All about her life and how dad should plan the party not her. I didn’t ask her, I just asked for suggestions!

After a week mom said what she wanted. A membership to the botanical gardens. That’s easy. Wish she would have just said that at first. Then Chrissy is like we do it at my house. What happened projecting on all your life problems? Then I said we will get a cake for the party. Instead of being nice. My sister in law thanks Chrissy but not me. I am the one who has to go and get a gift card and the cake. Where’s my thanks. I think she does that on purpose.

As I get older, I am done with siblings. I am just done with them and their lives. I have been done with Adam since my birthday in March. I like NOT talking to him. I am done with my sister and other brother too. Invite me, don’t invite me. I’ll just show up whenever. I am back to keeping to myself with my life to them.

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The dreaded boob light. I understand why they are everywhere they are cheap. They are outdated! Finally it’s gone.

This light is so pretty AND gives off a lot of light. The kitchen is coming together.

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Finally made it to the lake this year. Been awhile since I have been. Still looks the same.

Jeff and I decided to talk to our doctor and start taking Mounjaro. So we can start losing some serious weight. We see him in October. Kinda nervous about the shot but if it helps, I am for it.

Still working on the kitchen. I was thinking it sort of rolled into, fix this or that. But it will be worth it in the end. It will look nice and we did it for a lot cheaper than having someone come in and do it for us.

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Last week I was sick! I was worried that I had Covid because I had a lump in my throat that wouldn’t go away. When I have gotten Covid I get a lump in my throat. That wasn’t what I had. I don’t know what I had. But I was sick for a good 4 days, then on top of that I got my period. It was a really miserable week last week and weekend.

Jeff has made great progress on the kitchen. Thankfully I am all better and can help this weekend with the kitchen. Mostly painting which I don’t mind and he doesn’t like to.

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Fourth of July came and went. Alice looked really depressed and understandable getting a divorce. She told her kids call dad when you get a chance and her son said “I am NOT calling him”. Sad that there has to be riff too. It was nice to see them though. Jared wasn’t wearing his ring. He so wanted to be a husband. I hope one day he can find his person and Alice too.

It was hot on Friday. We all were sweaty and complaining how hot it was. We got to hang out with Tank. Everyone wants to see the dog. It was a strange day. No one asked me to play poker with them. People didn’t really want to talk about anything. It just seemed like people wanted to leave and not be there which I never felt any time before at any family get togethers.