This week was emotional week because April told me a lot about her dad. I didn’t know what terrible dad he was. I knew but didn’t know all the terrible things.

Made me think of my dad and how he wasn’t there. It sucked because I haven’t thought about that in a long time. I was thinking of the lava lamp incident.

Lava lamp Incident: Is I am a teen and I really wanted this lava lamp.

It looked like this. I really, really wanted it for Christmas. I told my dad this is what I want. For Christmas I got it and it said it was from my dad. I was so happy but then my mom said well I got it and wrapped it. I looked at her and was like what? You mean dad didn’t go to the store and pick this out just for me? I was about either 13 or 14 years old. I was crushed! I was always wanted things from my dad and a simple gift like this that my dad went out and picked up just for me, would have been special.

At the time I should have known. I mean this guy couldn’t even remember my birthday and asked me every year how old I was going to be and not in a joking way. I mean how can you forget St. Patrick’s day? He didn’t come to my sports events or recitals and even on vacation, work was more important. This incident sticks out because it really hurt me. Sure I got the gift I wanted, but in reality I wanted a gift from my dad and it didn’t have to be this. It could have been anything.

That was my week in my brain. I meditated and thought about the good relationship have with my dad now. I do feel better now. Never know when memories will come back, good or bad.

Ugh it’s that time of the year to mow the lawn again! No!!!

My Youtube subs have hit a wall which I was wondering when it would but over 200 subs is super cool! I still wonder how many subs I will lose after all the Elvis review movies are done.

Next week is a week off, time to do house maintenance! Whooo! I am so excited, not really.

I have a huge deep crack in my heal and damn it hurts! I had to have Jeff super glue it for it me. Damn it stung. I hope it gets better soon.

I can’t believe it’s May already! Wow, January was so slow but now it’s so fast!

Jeff hurt is back and I have been cooking. Me! I mean I can cook but I really don’t like too. I made chili for the first time in my life and Jeff said it was better than his. WOW! No way! So now I have to make the chili but that’s great.

This is a healing cap that was supposed to stay in my mouth when I got my screw placed. Fell out on Easter and scared me because I just had done eating. I am glad I didn’t swallow it. This time around my mouth has been very sore. I got a bruise on my face and where he put in the nonvaccine in my mouth as shots have been sore. It’s been a bit on the horrible even more so eating. I had this put back in my mouth and all over again soreness.

On Easter we watched the Ten Commandments which is significant because we haven’t watched that since Jeff’s mom died. So it was good to watch it again.

I didn’t really think about Elvis till now. Since, I am doing reviews on all Elvis movies, how passionate people are about Elvis. I should have thought about it more but for whatever reason didn’t. However mostly positive comments on my review videos and gaining subscribers which is cool! I started with 5 in January and for three years to 186 now! Awesome! I am aware I’ll probably lose subscribers after my Elvis movies but it’s still fun.

My sister started a YouTube channel and it’s not very good. Her is all shorts and about talking publicly but she’s trying too hard. First, she has a filter that makes her face look strange. She claims she used it because she is 50. But it makes her face look unnatural. Also, all the prep like learning how to gain subs fast. I am like listen I have been doing YouTube for 3 years and only had 5 subs for all that time. Year 4 different of course but you can’t gain subs like that. Just got to keep going.

I did say just do what you think you like and want to do for a long time. For me I love old movies and learning about them is fun! I know what she is trying to do, make that money off YouTube it’s harder than you think. She loves TikTok but no one knows if it’s going to be around. TikTok and YouTube are completely different. What works on TikTok doesn’t really translate to YouTube.

We celebrated birthdays again last Saturday. We made Milena cry but in a good way. We got her an angel snow globe and she loved it. I got mugs and four leaf clover necklace. It is really pretty.

This Saturday is more birthdays. Lol! With my sister and family. That will be fun.

We are still getting snow. WHY???!!!

I am still gaining YouTube subs which is cool! Got some nasty comments but mostly positive.

Monday was my bday! I am 42. Jeff and I went to eat Mexican food, then I had Dunkin coffee and we went shopping. It was fun!

My sister in law gave me a gift card for Dunkin. Which she has never had done that before. I guess that visit did something. Very grateful. On top of that April bought me a kindle book called :The Stranger Upstairs. It’s a ghost story. That was super nice of her! Then I got money from my parents. Who doesn’t like money! All in all I had a great birthday.

Where’s spring? It was nice and all the snow melted then it snowed and now we have snow again.

Been having trouble with my sleeping machine mask. It’s sort of frustrating. Thankfully everyone has been helpful and trying to help me trying to find the best mask for me. What sucks is I only have 30 days to do so. Been struggling with sleep with that.

Oh my mom said Adam lost his job. She told me to write him a message to say I am sorry you lost your job. I refused. If he wanted me to know he would have told me. My mom tells me he’s still my brother. True but not a close one, not anymore. I don’t want someone like him in my life right now. Maybe if he grows up and wants to reconnect but now no. Oh well.

Other than that nothing else going on.