Wed Aug 27 was Jeff’s birthday! I can’t believe it, he turned 49. I remember when we were dating that we celebrated his 30th birthday! Time really goes by fast as one grows older. We had Stucc’s Pizza and cheese cake from….get this New York! Yeah Jeff ordered from NY. Which I find funny because his mom would always say this story where Jeff ordered cheese cake from NY. Here he did it again. LOL!!! It was really good though.
Happy birthday Jeff, love you!
My mom is turning 70 on Sept 9. Mom was like plan a birthday for me. I said what do you want. We talked and I said I’ll ask Chrissy her suggestions. Message Chrissy and all I get is projection to me. All about her life and how dad should plan the party not her. I didn’t ask her, I just asked for suggestions!
After a week mom said what she wanted. A membership to the botanical gardens. That’s easy. Wish she would have just said that at first. Then Chrissy is like we do it at my house. What happened projecting on all your life problems? Then I said we will get a cake for the party. Instead of being nice. My sister in law thanks Chrissy but not me. I am the one who has to go and get a gift card and the cake. Where’s my thanks. I think she does that on purpose.
As I get older, I am done with siblings. I am just done with them and their lives. I have been done with Adam since my birthday in March. I like NOT talking to him. I am done with my sister and other brother too. Invite me, don’t invite me. I’ll just show up whenever. I am back to keeping to myself with my life to them.
The dreaded boob light. I understand why they are everywhere they are cheap. They are outdated! Finally it’s gone.
This light is so pretty AND gives off a lot of light. The kitchen is coming together.
Finally made it to the lake this year. Been awhile since I have been. Still looks the same.
Jeff and I decided to talk to our doctor and start taking Mounjaro. So we can start losing some serious weight. We see him in October. Kinda nervous about the shot but if it helps, I am for it.
Still working on the kitchen. I was thinking it sort of rolled into, fix this or that. But it will be worth it in the end. It will look nice and we did it for a lot cheaper than having someone come in and do it for us.
Last week I was sick! I was worried that I had Covid because I had a lump in my throat that wouldn’t go away. When I have gotten Covid I get a lump in my throat. That wasn’t what I had. I don’t know what I had. But I was sick for a good 4 days, then on top of that I got my period. It was a really miserable week last week and weekend.
Jeff has made great progress on the kitchen. Thankfully I am all better and can help this weekend with the kitchen. Mostly painting which I don’t mind and he doesn’t like to.
Fourth of July came and went. Alice looked really depressed and understandable getting a divorce. She told her kids call dad when you get a chance and her son said “I am NOT calling him”. Sad that there has to be riff too. It was nice to see them though. Jared wasn’t wearing his ring. He so wanted to be a husband. I hope one day he can find his person and Alice too.
It was hot on Friday. We all were sweaty and complaining how hot it was. We got to hang out with Tank. Everyone wants to see the dog. It was a strange day. No one asked me to play poker with them. People didn’t really want to talk about anything. It just seemed like people wanted to leave and not be there which I never felt any time before at any family get togethers.
I was looking at my old journal before I started journaling here. I was so naive and DUMB! LOL! Which really had me thinking that I really grew up since journaling there. That’s good that I grew up. It’s good to have a different view on life then 20’s year old me. Made think a lot of all the different things I thought I wanted in life and what it is now. I am happy how it turned out so far.
This friday is not only Independence Day but Tex’s birthday! I’ll have pics and video later. Tex is going to be 7 years old! We can’t believe he’s 7! Wow! Where did the time go with our baby?! It will be a fun birthday. We got some cookies and a huge dog toy that is shaped like pizza! lol! He’ll have fun.
Also, this Friday we are going to my parents house. Oooo! Mom told me some family gossip. Family gossip is a funny thing. Found out that Jared who was only married in 2023 is getting a divorce. I’ll see if anyone says anything about that. Alice is getting a divorce and they been married since 2012 and they have kids. So, also see what the family will say about it or not. What strange about family gossip is Jeff always finds out more than I do!
This is our kitchen before:
We don’t like Family-God-Country decal and it’s on there! Tried over the years to get it off and also it’s above the sink, very hard to even get to it as well.
In progress:
Can’t remove it, cover it. lol!
We are redoing our kitchen. Funny story how that came to be. The knob on my coffee cabinet was ugly and gross. The knobs in our kitchen are ugly and gross lol! They had stickers on them at one time and then their terribly scratched. So I said Jeff I am going to the Resale store to get new knobs. We went and I found a cute set of knobs for 2 dollars. After I changed the knob. Jeff said you know we have been wanting to change this kitchen. Should we do that? I was like yeah! And now we are redoing our kitchen, DIY style. Funny how one thing lead to a big change.
Also, we have this wood wall that is painted white. I hate it and so does Jeff it’s ugly. So, we are going to be redoing that too. Good thing our kitchen and dining area are small. The dining area is actually my office we don’t have a dining area, not anymore.
This week was emotional week because April told me a lot about her dad. I didn’t know what terrible dad he was. I knew but didn’t know all the terrible things.
Made me think of my dad and how he wasn’t there. It sucked because I haven’t thought about that in a long time. I was thinking of the lava lamp incident.
Lava lamp Incident: Is I am a teen and I really wanted this lava lamp.
It looked like this. I really, really wanted it for Christmas. I told my dad this is what I want. For Christmas I got it and it said it was from my dad. I was so happy but then my mom said well I got it and wrapped it. I looked at her and was like what? You mean dad didn’t go to the store and pick this out just for me? I was about either 13 or 14 years old. I was crushed! I was always wanted things from my dad and a simple gift like this that my dad went out and picked up just for me, would have been special.
At the time I should have known. I mean this guy couldn’t even remember my birthday and asked me every year how old I was going to be and not in a joking way. I mean how can you forget St. Patrick’s day? He didn’t come to my sports events or recitals and even on vacation, work was more important. This incident sticks out because it really hurt me. Sure I got the gift I wanted, but in reality I wanted a gift from my dad and it didn’t have to be this. It could have been anything.
That was my week in my brain. I meditated and thought about the good relationship have with my dad now. I do feel better now. Never know when memories will come back, good or bad.