Here it is! Our new floor!

We are so happy to the floor. No more stinky carpet!

So….ugh….Adam went into a physic place in Oregon. He told our dad that his life has ended. Yes, at 40 years old. I know mental illness is something that can’t be cured. I had a realization that Adam has no coping mechanisms.

Mom and I had a deep conversation about grandma (her mom) and her sister (aunt Kathy) and how they were/are the same as Adam. That I don’t have to forgive and I don’t forgive what he said to me and removed me as his sister on all his socials. Mom said I didn’t have to forgive as there things she never forgave her mom or her sister. However, there are certain situations that no matter what we are still family. She asked me if I still love him and deep down I do.

I had to have Jeff call the place because of my froggy voice. But I did eventually get to talk to him. He seemed like himself which is good. He has been there for almost a week. I said I loved him and he said he loves me. He was cracking jokes like he always does when he feels better. One thing stood out was he said things will be different. I know that is a lie. That’s what they always say and it never changes. In a way I am glad we had fall out, so I can see him for who he is. So he can’t get to me anymore and hurt me. Anyways, he is coming back to Wisconsin. I am pensive about that.

Finally the end of the month is here. That means new flooring which was a long time coming. Our office carpet was the nastiest part of our house. Finally, it got tore out and replaced with vinyl wood flooring. Pics later as I am typing this they are still working on it. This it what the old carpet was, it was from 1983, it’s been here since the house was built. Every time it was hot out the carpet would smell like a basement and other stale things. The owner before us had a dog and it smelled like old pee sometimes, then my sister’s dog did pee on that carpet. Tex has thrown up on that carpet. Dog things has happened to that carpet. No matter if was cleaned or vacuumed it was still so gross! Now it’s gone!

Seeing my mom this weekend. Haven’t seen her since last year. They are home now. Saw Jeff’s mom at the cemetery. It was nice to spend some time there.

First time that Jeff left for a work trip for days! I didn’t think I would feel anything different as I don’t mind being by myself. WRONG! I felt sad that he had to been gone for days. Mostly the night time all by myself. I do have Tex but he’s been a mopey butt. I knew he would be. I miss Jeff!!! I am glad he came home on Friday. Jeff even said that he missed me a lot.

Another gripe is that I am so glad my bff April checked up on me on how was doing, not. She didn’t, I don’t know why that also sucked.

Tattoo looking better. I was worried I would need more antibiotics but it starting to calm way down. Still a bit red but I think that’s just me. It’s has started the peeling process and so now I just leave it be which seems to be helping. This one was so strange because it hardly has no color in it as it is mostly outline. Yet, in flared up. That’s tattoos for you, never know what will be the outcome.

It’s sad our last tree died this winter. It was really shedding it’s bark and losing branches. We were worried that it would fall on the house. So we had to say goodbye. One of the main reasons why we bought this house because it looked like a house in the forest with over 20 trees in it and now they are all gone.

Another week in paradise, just kidding. Another winter storm what’s new. Now America is in war, oh I am sorry conflict. Why? Ugh! I don’t understand the government and now I feel I know even less than before.

I still have to go the dentist to get my tooth adjusted again. I hate it!

But I am looking forward to Tuesday which is my bday. Getting another tattoo! I can’t wait!

I have been learning new cross stitches for fun. This is what I learned so far:

These are not perfect, but they were my first try. I am pretty proud of myself for learning something new.