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This week has been trying week. My parents dropped off their dog Tank on Friday Sept 18. He peed in my house twice and pooped in my house twice now. The worst day was Wednesday. Jeff got sick so he took Monday off and of course I caught his cold so, now I am sick which didn’t help the situation. On Wednesday when Jeff left for work before 8. Tank became unbearable. From the time Jeff left till Midnight the next day. He barked and growled for four hours straight. Then he somehow got under the bed, didn’t think he could because we have totes underneath. He got under the bed and clawed under the bed for an hour. It really wore me down. He was so bad! I had to put in him the laundry room for a time out. It didn’t stop there, he continued to bark and growl, being demanding. I gave him another time out again. Yet, it didn’t work. The last straw is when I went to take my night shower and I put Tank in the bedroom with the gate up. It’s so Tex can have some time away from him at night. While in the shower, he knocked the gate down. I had, had enough. I got out of the shower and put him in the kitchen with his bed and some water. I put the gate up there and I know he couldn’t knock it over because it’s wedged between the wall and the fridge. Then he was quiet, then he stopped being a huge brat.

Look at this tiny thing. He was such a brat! Thursday and Friday he was been a good boy. I guess it took one day of hell for him to be a calmer dog and behave. Also, I haven’t seen any accidents either yet. We will see how it goes, my parents don’t come back till the 30th. I am ready for calm again. Tex has been such a good boy with him too. Mostly avoiding him.

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I have lost 46 pounds since last year, it’s crazy I never thought I would lose like that. Usually, I lose around myself then my weight. I did do that and now I know I am down. I wish I could say I feel better but I a have been battling my muscles. They have been tight and painful. Trying to figure out how to make that better. However, overall I am happy about my weight loss. It’s a learning process too on how much I SHOULD eat versus what my brain says what I WANT to eat.

My mom is 71 and we will celebrate tomorrow for her birthday. Jeff and I bought her a princess cake! LOL! She will love it!

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Went to my Uncle’s celebration of life. It was good and bad at the same time. The place did him dirty. They were terrible. The microphone kept not working and no worker trying to help out to get a new one. My cousin had to go give them the business for the microphone. So we had to hear the same story over 3 times. My cousin sang could hardly hear her because of the microphone. Which she had a lovely voice! Then there wasn’t enough seating and they started opening up the room making people move while people are talking!! It was so disrespectful! However, it was a good service. There was easily over 200 people. I got to see cousins I haven’t in awhile because they live in different states.

My husband turned 50 on Thursday! I can’t believe it that my Jeff is 50! We will celebrate this weekend.

This Friday we are going to see his dad and I am calling her the evil wife. I have decide I dislike her. All that planning for Father’s day and how she couldn’t take Friday’s off. How his dad, Ken can’t do anything without her now. What is that all about?! Now all of sudden she can have a Friday off? Going out to lunch with her today. I just can’t stand her and I don’t want to do anything with them anymore. I have stopped saying Hey Jeff lets call your dad and such because I am done. Jeff has also been disappointed because his dad still works and could stop over and see him and Jeff has told him let me know when you are in the office we will go to lunch. Nothing. They work literally 5 minutes from each other. Ridiculous!

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Well that was awkward. Went to my nephew’s graduation party and it wasn’t a fun time. First all of all of sudden it got really hot! Wisconsin weather is odd. Basically, sweating for hours. My nephew was being a teen and didn’t really show up for his own graduation. He was there but stayed with his girlfriend and didn’t interact with anyone.

Awkward was my mom’s side of the family, some came and I wish they didn’t. Aunt DeLise and Uncle Jeffery, Uncle Mark and his girlfriend who he never introduced which is was strange. I haven’t seen them probably like 15 years now. I don’t want too. The reason is the last time they were very judgmental towards me and said things that were not nice to me. That time I hadn’t seen them in years as well.

Jeff and I just stayed in the house and talked with my siblings. We stayed for 3 hours, I think that was long enough. Just sucks that my nephew didn’t really come around to even chat with us a little bit.

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It’s a Lambeau Field kinda year. April came over and we went to Lambeau Field she hadn’t been there since the 90’s. It has changed a whole lot since then.

Jeff was there too! This is a nice pic of us.

It was a great day. Then we went to eat Mexican food, had Starbucks then April went home.

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April came over and stayed for a day. We watched Wicked 1 and 2 and Zooptopia 2 all great movies! I really liked Wicked one and two. The singing, dancing, the background and the story. It was all great! Zooptopia 2 was hilarious!

April hasn’t been to my house in 8 years. It was time she came over. We had a great time. Got coffee, and went thrifting. Can’t go wrong with thrifting! April spent some cash at the thrift store. It was fun to see her and had a great time.

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I survived family fourth of July!

I saw Adam and now I am so sure. I do not love him or care what he says. I literally feel nothing, nothing at all when I see him. It’s an odd feeling to feel nothing towards a person, I grew up with and thought was going to be by best friend forever. Now nothing.

Told my aunt no more Thanksgivings either and she tried to make us feel bad. I didn’t. I didn’t care about it. However, Jeff said he felt bad and I asked why? You and I don’t want to go anyways, so why does it matter. But I do understand why he feels this way. Almost 20 years of going to Thanksgiving since we been together and all my life going as well. There are some feelings towards the holiday because of that.

Jeff brought his classic car to my parents house. The joy my uncle felt was amazing and worth bringing it. He had sooooo much fun! Jeff brought my Dad, Uncle Paul and Drew around the neighborhood. That was the highlight!

At night went to Jeff’s friend Jeff’s house and he blew up fireworks. It was so fun and loud but pretty. It was a great day. I found out many thing I needed to see and feel. Plus fireworks.

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Happy 250 Birthday America! Wow can’t believe the nation is 250 that’s cool!

This Saturday going to the parents house and Adam is going to be there. He is moving in with them. Ugh! I noticed that when it comes to him, I have the attitude I don’t care. I try to pretend to care and ask a question about him but I really don’t care. It’s like seeing someone who was erased in my timeline and it was a relief. That’s all I think of when it comes to him. I thought I had love for him still but I feel literally nothing for him. The real test is when I see him, if I feel anything for him.

I am not sure if I will be able to attend fireworks this year. If it’s going to be hot as the weather says. I won’t be able to breathe outside. If it gets humid it feels like I can’t catch my breath. If it’s going to be that, I can’t be outside.

Tex will be 8 on Saturday! I can’t believe Tex is already 8. We got him his favorite cookies and a toy.

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Wednesday June 24, Jeff and I took our parents to Lambeau Field for a tour and lunch to celebrate Father’s Day. We had lots of fun! Here are some pics of that day.

Jeff got me something I really wanted! I LOVE Squishmallows! I saw this perfume and once the perfume is gone you can keep the bottle and fill it with whatever you want. He got me it!

It’s so adorable! I love it! Wednesday was the best day, I have had in a long time! That’s thanks to Jeff.

I got a new chair. My other one was giving me pains when I sat in it for any amount of time. I got this funky pattern and it’s soft to the touch.

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Here it is! Our new floor!

We are so happy to the floor. No more stinky carpet!

So….ugh….Adam went into a physic place in Oregon. He told our dad that his life has ended. Yes, at 40 years old. I know mental illness is something that can’t be cured. I had a realization that Adam has no coping mechanisms.

Mom and I had a deep conversation about grandma (her mom) and her sister (aunt Kathy) and how they were/are the same as Adam. That I don’t have to forgive and I don’t forgive what he said to me and removed me as his sister on all his socials. Mom said I didn’t have to forgive as there things she never forgave her mom or her sister. However, there are certain situations that no matter what we are still family. She asked me if I still love him and deep down I do.

I had to have Jeff call the place because of my froggy voice. But I did eventually get to talk to him. He seemed like himself which is good. He has been there for almost a week. I said I loved him and he said he loves me. He was cracking jokes like he always does when he feels better. One thing stood out was he said things will be different. I know that is a lie. That’s what they always say and it never changes. In a way I am glad we had fall out, so I can see him for who he is. So he can’t get to me anymore and hurt me. Anyways, he is coming back to Wisconsin. I am pensive about that.