I survived family fourth of July!

I saw Adam and now I am so sure. I do not love him or care what he says. I literally feel nothing, nothing at all when I see him. It’s an odd feeling to feel nothing towards a person, I grew up with and thought was going to be by best friend forever. Now nothing.

Told my aunt no more Thanksgivings either and she tried to make us feel bad. I didn’t. I didn’t care about it. However, Jeff said he felt bad and I asked why? You and I don’t want to go anyways, so why does it matter. But I do understand why he feels this way. Almost 20 years of going to Thanksgiving since we been together and all my life going as well. There are some feelings towards the holiday because of that.

Jeff brought his classic car to my parents house. The joy my uncle felt was amazing and worth bringing it. He had sooooo much fun! Jeff brought my Dad, Uncle Paul and Drew around the neighborhood. That was the highlight!

At night went to Jeff’s friend Jeff’s house and he blew up fireworks. It was so fun and loud but pretty. It was a great day. I found out many thing I needed to see and feel. Plus fireworks.

Happy 250 Birthday America! Wow can’t believe the nation is 250 that’s cool!

This Saturday going to the parents house and Adam is going to be there. He is moving in with them. Ugh! I noticed that when it comes to him, I have the attitude I don’t care. I try to pretend to care and ask a question about him but I really don’t care. It’s like seeing someone who was erased in my timeline and it was a relief. That’s all I think of when it comes to him. I thought I had love for him still but I feel literally nothing for him. The real test is when I see him, if I feel anything for him.

I am not sure if I will be able to attend fireworks this year. If it’s going to be hot as the weather says. I won’t be able to breathe outside. If it gets humid it feels like I can’t catch my breath. If it’s going to be that, I can’t be outside.

Tex will be 8 on Saturday! I can’t believe Tex is already 8. We got him his favorite cookies and a toy.

Wednesday June 24, Jeff and I took our parents to Lambeau Field for a tour and lunch to celebrate Father’s Day. We had lots of fun! Here are some pics of that day.

Jeff got me something I really wanted! I LOVE Squishmallows! I saw this perfume and once the perfume is gone you can keep the bottle and fill it with whatever you want. He got me it!

It’s so adorable! I love it! Wednesday was the best day, I have had in a long time! That’s thanks to Jeff.

I got a new chair. My other one was giving me pains when I sat in it for any amount of time. I got this funky pattern and it’s soft to the touch.

I had a great bday! I am now 43! I got my tattoo on my birthday:

It’s soooo cute! It didn’t hurt either. Not until Wed then it hurt. He kept saying really? It doesn’t hurt? lol!

Then we went to El Jefe it’s a new restaurant in our town. It was sooooo good!

The food was amazing! Had leftovers which is the best. All in all a great day!

I can’t believe it’s already the New Year! I feel this year went really fast.

For a week Jeff and I have the flu. So, trying to get over that. Last week was Christmas, we went to Chrissy’s house and Chrissy got me gifts that do not make sense to me. I got ugly mugs and not even the right size, they are small, cooking utensils that are Christmas themes, don’t cook and slippers that do not fit even though I told her my size. I know it’s the thought that counts however it also shows how little she knows me. Kim and Corey actually gave us a gift, Kwik Trip gift card. Whooo free gas! We got gifts for everyone and everyone liked their gifts even Chrissy because I know what she likes. The reason I know because she told me many times even over chats. I keep telling people gift giving is my love language.

We did the giving tree not the famous Angel tree. The giving tree is a local tree for our community and it was fun to go for shopping for other people and give back.

This year I found out I can’t have a sleep apnea machine because I am allergic to the mask. I am still getting billed for it.

I got a big tattoo and it was the first tattoo that actually hurt really bad after the fact. Worth it. I am getting another tattoo on my birthday next year.

We redid our Kitchen and built a porch. What will we do next year?

I built up my YouTube I went from 5 subs to over 500 subs. I will continue doing YouTube, I even got some hate comments and survived because I am sensitive but trying to become tougher. I had to delete some comments because they were very hateful though. There are certain things I won’t allow on my channel.

I decided to distance myself from Adam. I don’t want him in my life at this point. He is a hateful and narcissistic person I don’t need in my life. Will he be back in my life, I do not know.

I started taking tirzepatide to lose weight. So, far so good. I lost 7 pounds but I feel better mentally. I lost some inches around myself.

On to 2026!

We dyed eggs:

Sunday is Easter and April’s birthday. I feel bad she has to spend it with her family. They are so terrible to her. Her family inflicts emotional and mental abuse upon her. She deserves none of that. I feel for her. I wish she didn’t have to spend her birthday with those awful people. Yet she will still go no matter what. Poor April my friend. I hope she will be okay, I know she is stubborn and tough. I will talk to her when she is done with them.

It’s that time again!

I want to walk down memory lane. I miss my dad doing Santa’s voice and Adam being his elf. How fun that was, when all the kids were small. Even when dad would do Santa’s voice when I was little. My mom putting silly names on the presents like from Rudolph or from Dancer. Fun names not just from Santa or the parents. Leaving out milk and cookies for Santa. Making homemade the Christmas cookies with mom. Fun memories I didn’t think I would miss from Christmas as an adult.

This year no parents and all the kids are grown up. Went to my sister’s house for Christmas it was fun. We spent 5 hours there. We didn’t get home till 11 at night. But we had a great time. The kids were so funny! They each got money and we got them body spray as well. I picked out Bree’s gift and got her Bodycology Vanilla Whip and I just thought I like it so maybe she will will like it. She freaked out about it and was OMG THIS IS MY FAVORITE! How did you know? That made me feel good! Just guessed really. As for Drew, Jeff got him Bod spray three of them. He was like OMG I love these and I needed more! Made us happy they loved their gifts.

I dyed my hair neon green. I am not sure, I like it because it’s different but think I look better in dark hair at the same time. I didn’t have to spend any money to dye my hair as I already had everything. That’s a plus!

Taking a pic with Tex was hard! He was so hyper and wanted to play. But still got some pics. Lol! Silly!

Last Thursday was Thanksgiving and it was interesting. I am going to talk about my cousin Korrie. Found out she is the same age as me. Which would mean you would think that she would have some manners, that is not so.

She is one of those people where it’s all about me, me and me. Which normally I am fine with, more about you is better than about me. However, when they are rude! I am not okay with that. First, she made lemon cheesecake which was fine, it was huge!

My Aunt Judy has been going through a hard time. She is 83 years old. Her husband (Uncle John) who is also 83 years old had a health scare that lead him to be in the ICU for some days. He had to get a pace maker put in they day before Thanksgiving. I was surprised to see Aunt Judy at Thanksgiving. She looked really tired which is understandable! So, I was sitting at the table with Korrie, my mom, Aunt Judy, Jeff and my Aunt JoAnne. Aunt Judy asked what is this wet stuff? Korrie replies “It is curd you dork!” That was appalling to me. I couldn’t believe she said that to her. That was very disrespectful. Aunt Judy brought that up all day and Korrie was super flustered which is good because WTF Korrie!

Also, Korrie has 4 kids from 4 different me. She was cleaning the table and we were talking about her kids. My mom said “I had to raise 2 kids by myself for a while. It was hard.” Which Korrie replies I had to raise 4 kids all by myself with no help.” I didn’t know it was a contest. My mom gave the look like whatever. The way she says things isn’t right.

Then! Then! I was talking to my mom about her puppy Tank and I was talking about Tex. She had to butt in to talk about her Maine coon cats who she is breeding. Tell us about her first litter on and on. Telling us she loves cats more than dogs. Which is totally fine! But my mom and I were talking about our dogs not your cats. She really can’t read the room for sure. Some people really can’t.

Nail in the coffin as they say. Talking how she is going to school for paramedic fire fighter. Which is a amazing but how about just say how you are doing instead of bragging about it. Read the room Korrie! On and on about school and how hard it is in her 40’s to this or that.

Funny, I was just telling Jeff I rarely don’t tune people out and think of other things. But there has been times where I would think of other things, mostly what movie I want to see later or I will think about what Tex is doing right now. Jeff said he is the same! It’s rare but does happen to him too. When Korrie was speaking, I admit I totally stopped listening and was thinking how rude this person is.

That was Thanksgiving. The food was good. It was good to see Aunt Judy.

Thursday was the 4th of July our Independence Day. Went to mom’s house. Some of my aunts and uncles were there and some of my cousins. It was a fun day.

My mom had her friend Kathy. I have to say she was judgemental. You know how you can tell if someone is being judgemental towards you. Yes, that was her. She was judgemental about my hair being super short and my zombie tattoo. Damn I didn’t like how she said things to me. Also, my tattoos aren’t for anyone else but me.

My cousin Jeff was there and we played cards like we always do. Okay, my Uncle Dan is old! Cousin Jeff always plays these games with a billion rules! So many! Can tell that Uncle Dan was having trouble remembering them. Damn, even I can’t ever remember the rules. It’s like damn dude, keep it simple. I also got in trouble for going out of turn. Funny, cousin Jeff yelled at me and my Jeff was ready to get off the couch and yell at him for yelling at me. Lol! I love that man. Turns out it wasn’t my fault my cousin Reuben was going out of turn. I didn’t get an apology. I don’t really like my cousin Jeff anyway.

It was Tex’s birthday! He turned 6! I can’t believe he is 6. Where did the time go?!

Awe Happy birthday to our baby!