Here it is! Our new floor!

We are so happy to the floor. No more stinky carpet!

So….ugh….Adam went into a physic place in Oregon. He told our dad that his life has ended. Yes, at 40 years old. I know mental illness is something that can’t be cured. I had a realization that Adam has no coping mechanisms.

Mom and I had a deep conversation about grandma (her mom) and her sister (aunt Kathy) and how they were/are the same as Adam. That I don’t have to forgive and I don’t forgive what he said to me and removed me as his sister on all his socials. Mom said I didn’t have to forgive as there things she never forgave her mom or her sister. However, there are certain situations that no matter what we are still family. She asked me if I still love him and deep down I do.

I had to have Jeff call the place because of my froggy voice. But I did eventually get to talk to him. He seemed like himself which is good. He has been there for almost a week. I said I loved him and he said he loves me. He was cracking jokes like he always does when he feels better. One thing stood out was he said things will be different. I know that is a lie. That’s what they always say and it never changes. In a way I am glad we had fall out, so I can see him for who he is. So he can’t get to me anymore and hurt me. Anyways, he is coming back to Wisconsin. I am pensive about that.