Feeling emotional for a couple of days. As you know blog I try hard to be positive and try not to dwell but lately it has been unfair. And hard to do with what’s going on with April and my mom.
I feel badly for her. April has been going to the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota because they wanted to see if they can fix her throat. A couple of weeks ago she went to the ER because she couldn’t breathe and not stop throwing up. Scary! They said there is something wrong with the muscles in her throat. She has always had problems with her throat when she eats. When she eats she can’t get enough air in and she chokes a little. But now it’s so much worst.
While at Mayo she has been having everything tested. Her eyes, tumor on her brain and her throat. She has such a fear of needles and have been getting stuck like a pin cushion. Good news they didn’t find that tumor on her brain. It disappear because she has been doing awesome herbal stuff. Bad news there is something wrong with her eyes. They aren’t sure if it’s a tumor in her eyes.
On top of that her family hasn’t been the nicest either. I feel horrible for her and pray she will be okay.
It’s my mom again. So unfair she got to me. I try hard to not dwell on my mom. Sometimes she is great then other times she is like this. Last Friday August 19 2016 Jeff had the day off. My mom asked me if I could come down and take her to the doctors and dad too. I agreed. Jeff said he would come along wanted to go to Menard’s. I was happy he could come. I am horrible at directions. Jeff and I made a deal. I drive there, he drive them to their appointments then I drive home. We live about forty five minutes to an hour from them.
To get there on time we had to wake up at 4:30 in the morning. Early! Any way we drove them all around for hours. It was fine. Was happy to help out. But then she basically slapped me in the face this week. They are moving to an apartment as they sold their house and their house isn’t built yet. She asked me if I could help her this Saturday. I can’t Jeff’s birthday is Saturday. Then she said I never to do anything to help her.
WHAT?!!!!
Jeff on his day off and I went down last Friday and drove her to all her appointments. I could have said no. She could have asked Corey or Chrissy to help but guess what she didn’t. She asked me and like always I try to make it happen. To say I never do anything to help her is bullshit! I do a lot of things for her, to help her. It’s unfair she singles me out from the rest like always. She tries to make me feel bad and usually I am good at deflecting but this time I couldn’t. I feel sad and upset about this.
Unfortunately later today I am hanging out with her. I don’t really want too after this. But at the same time she is taking me to get my hair cut and colored. Then she wants to hang out with me for the rest of the day. I feel like canceling but I can’t. The lady who is cutting my hair I haven’t seen in years. She is very nice and I want to see her new place.
I know she only does to this to me. It’s unfair she does.
