So ever have a fb friend dm you to sell things but you haven’t actually talked to them in like over 10 years? Yeah, that seems to be me. I haven’t chatted with this person in like over 10 years and yet seems to think I want to sell things. Obliviously, they don’t know me well I mean I know they don’t but still, really?! She wanted to see if I wanted to sell healthy powders to drink and pills for health. I am sorry I don’t believe in that stuff. I feel like people are going to make up their own minds on that. It’s their bodies and if they want to eat shit or make it healthy then that’s up to that person. We have the internet now and can make up our own minds.

I just hate that. How about hey how’s it going? How’s life etc. I mean really? If I wanted to do any of that I would figure out how to do it.

I have come to the point in my life I just don’t really care about things as I use to. Jeff said when he was my age he started to realize that too. I just really, really do not care. Lol! It’s kind of liberating now. Right now, I am working on not saying sorry all the time. I say it without realizing it. That needs to stop. I only want to say it if I did something wrong.

I had to go to the dermatologist on Wed. I was really trying not to see him this year. But I got two places of skin irritation I couldn’t cure myself on my torso. It has been months trying too. I finally gave up and saw him. I am glad I did. He gave me two creams and I already see a difference. I should have really seen him earlier.

I decided what I want to do to my hair. I am going black purple. I won’t do this till March though. I want to try to get the color I have now to come out more.

I don’t know what I want to do with my hair. The color is fading. Not sure if I really want to bleach it. Because my hair is starting to feel healthy again. I am thinking of black but semi-permanent again. I think it would be neat to see it come out and what comes out. But I really liked my purple hair. Decisions, decisions.

This Sunday is my dad’s birthday. I have to finish his present. I made him the Mandalorian and baby Yoda cross stitches. I have to iron them and put them in their frames yet. My dad will be 66 years old.

I saw the dentist on Wed. We had a long chat and I got my teeth cleaned. Always feels so nice. I decided on getting partial dentures. I only have five teeth on top and no back teeth at all. I really want to get more implants but I just can’t. They are super expensive and our insurance changed. So that means way more out of pocket for us. I am getting that this year and then I can finally eat like a normal person. Been sucky eating since I had my tooth pulled last year. Last chewer in my mouth. Ugh! Also I am glad to have this dentist as my new dentist.

Also one of the dental assistants was like “Oh wow you have been to the dentist a lot! You got so much work done in your mouth.” We laughed I am like yeah. I am not afraid to say this or that when it comes to my teeth. I know them really well. Overall good experience.

So….Cringe! Seriously CRINGE!!!

Why cringe? Well, my mom said something super stupid to me the other day and it made me cringe. Also, it was really insensitive as well. I mean this is one of the stupidest and cringest things I have heard my mom say. And at this point, we all know my mom can say some really stupid things.

Here is the situation. We got an email from the adoption agency for a potential birth mom. I have been keeping my mom in the loop. Also, I know I haven’t really written in here about that. There hasn’t been anything to say about adoption yet. Anyway, after a long discussion between myself and Jeff, we felt this baby wasn’t right for us. Which is perfectly fine. That is one of the things the adoption agent says a lot. You feel this child is not for your family that is perfectly fine and you will know which one is good for your family, etc.

And she didn’t like that answer. Then she said, “Why can’t someone just give you a baby?” Like did you just say that?! REALLY? Was so cringy. First of all these women are making a really tough decision. They are the bravest women to do this for their child.

So hard to let that comment go even though I know she would deny saying it. Then begs the question do I keep telling her when new moms pop up or not…On the other side, she always askes non-stop when I say no nothing. Then she says you should be calling them and keep asking. Which by the way that isn’t how that works. April says I shouldn’t keep my mom in the loop and I agree with that. So I guess not tell her anymore. But then my conscience is saying keep telling her. UGH I hate you brain sometimes. I guess I will make a decision next time.

Let’s see what happened this week….

Saw on FB that my niece Bree now has blue hair. My mom commented on how she likes it. Yet my hair still get bad comments from my mom. Was mad when I saw it. The only reason I can think of that my mom hates my hair other than I have more hair than her. Is Chrissy got Bree’s hair done professionally. Was mad but it faded. Whatever.

My mom wants me and her to go kick sledding. Looks stupid and don’t really want to but will anyways. I have no idea why my mom thinks this would be fun. More on that later when we go do it.

It finally snowed and now it’s officially winter.

Yeah really nothing else going on right now.