Let me tell you about Mother’s Day. Everything seemed happy. My siblings showed up with food. Sometimes I am unsure if they will. It was a nice sunny day last Sunday. We all sat outside. Jeff and I got burned. Our first sunburn of the year. Jeff got really burned. That really sucks!
Mom asked Kim if she was going to get the vaccine. She replied, “don’t worry about it”. Mom dropped it and she and I went inside so I could see the diamond painting she was working on.
Kim comes storming in yelling at her son that they are leaving right now! Mom and I looked at each other like what is going on? Mom asked what is going on? Corey starts yelling at mom. “It’s nobody’s business if we get vaccinated or not!” Even though yes it is. Maybe some people don’t want to be around those who haven’t got vaccinated yet. Whether to say it’s bad or not is up to each person.
It was a huge fight!
After they left in a huff. Mom and I went back outside and that’s when we got the whole story. Chrissy told Kim it’s Corey’s fault she got Covid. Look at the timeline all of us getting it around Corey. Kim said, “You don’t know that, it was him”. Like really?! Yes, it is! There is no way 5 people got Covid all at once. Also, Corey texted us all that he had Covid. If he didn’t think he gave it to anyone he wouldn’t have done that. Welcome to reality, Corey. I guess they were saying what the news says about Covid. It’s called doing your own research and also the news? Know I have an answer to my question on who really believes the news.
This brought to my attention my relationship with Corey. It’s not good that’s for sure. He has no remorse for what he did. He could have killed my parents. Mom and Chrissy got Covid and it was really bad for them. How could he do this and not feel bad? Even if he would have said I am not getting the shot and I don’t want to talk about it. That’s it. Fine we all would have been fine. But not to apologize to giving it to everyone, in my opinion unforgivable.
Like I have stated before I don’t understand why the family pities Corey. I don’t. He’s an adult and can make decisions on his own. I have struggled for a couple of days. Reflecting on how I feel about Corey. I decided I loved and respected the Corey when we were younger. We used to hang out. We used to be able to talk to each other. After years of me reaching out and trying to get together with him. Him not trying not even a tiny bit to at least be brotherly to me. Ignoring calls, texts, and even trying to hang out. I am done.
I have come to the conclusion I don’t love Corey. I can’t love someone I don’t have any kind of respect for. It’s different for me not to like something one of my family does. Maybe get mad here and there. This is a different feeling altogether. It’s not wrong to not love or even like your siblings. I think that is what I struggled with the most is he is my brother. Really that doesn’t mean anything.
Since he has chosen years ago he doesn’t care about our relationship then why should I try to mend something that isn’t even there anymore? It’s sad that it took Covid to bring that to light but the only thing that came from that fight is that hard feeling, I had but don’t have anymore. Since I don’t love my brother anymore. I feel actually free now. I don’t have to like him or his wife. Which really I haven’t ever really liked her anyway. I still will be civil but I can’t say I love you back. I am not going to say something just to say it because everyone else does.