I felt like crying the other day. I got a letter from Alice. I don’t know. I don’t know what to do. Write or not write. Ugh! Then the whole Adam thing got worse! The gull of this man!

He put out a GoFundMe for $500. People are donating! WTF?! WHY? He doesn’t deserve it. No one in the family has donated which speaks volumes. We are done with your shit Adam!

I started meditating and it’s helping. I always thought meditating would be hard for me because it’s hard to switch off my brain. But I started meditating after working out and that helped.

Now a funny pic of Tex for fun. I put a toy on his head. lol!

I am in a better place now. I started to work out. Ugh! I hate it/like it. I hate working out but I like how I feel. Working out has helped my mental state that I have been having trouble with. With the whole Adam thing. I am getting to the point of not thinking of him. He doesn’t need to take up space in my head. It’s getting better and I think working out has helped.

Still working on my granny square blanket. It’s going to take longer as my arthritis in my hands flared up. I even had to get a brace to sleep with for one of my hands. So many breaks before I can continue.

Nothing really else going on.

I have been struggling with my mind. I am trying hard to heal it after all the bullshit of lies of my younger brother and him bulling me without me not knowing, emotionally. It’s been tough for me to move on and find my strength to stop thinking of him and want to contact him. But I have been good at not contacting him anymore. It’s a struggle though.

My sister called me and told me about my older brother Corey being an asshole for no reason. It was so crazy Corey sounds like Adam and they fight the same. I mean they sounded the same! I told Chrissy you need to let him go. I told her how much I cried because it felt like losing someone. She said she cried too. I told her she should do some yoga as it helped me clear my mind or even working out would help. I told her though it’s a struggle.

Something that is crazy! My nephew is 16! I can’t believe it! He passed his driving test which is cool. I wanted to end this positively.