Been paying attention to the Ukraine conflict on Youtube. Can’t trust local news also local news. I hate local news. It’s so boring and never really tells the actual news. I like to watch foreign news they are unbias and actually tell the news. I am now becoming more and more of NOT a fan of Fox News. They are such liars and too much to the right. Even though I do like to watch them see the lies they spread. Just think I used to be a fan. Have to be careful of big news outlets they tell lies.

I feel bad for all those people over there. This conflict will hurt everyone around the world even here in the US. We watched the State of the Union Address what a pile of shit. Our president is an asshole. I hate when they take real people’s life and put it on display. Why do they do that? All those things he said are lies. No way will he fix anything. Why won’t he put back on the Keystone Pipeline so we can not take oil from Russia anymore?

Russia I feel so bad for my friend Helen. I can tell she is depressed even though she doesn’t say. Usually, we do recordings in our emails so she can practice her English. But since the conflict began she stopped doing them. Her emails have become depressing on the way she says things. I feel very bad for her. She tells me what is going on with regular people in Russia. She usually sends me a parcel for my birthday. She told me that the post office said no mail or anything to the US. I had a feeling it was going to be that way. She felt really bad she couldn’t send me a birthday present. Even though I told her it was okay and that I understand. But she insisted she really wanted to. I told her I know. I wish I could send her some stuff too to help out. But I know I can’t. I can’t do anything. All I can do is talk with her. I hope that is something to help her feel a little better.

Last week I was really sick. It came out of nowhere and I have no idea where I have gotten it from. It was some kind of stomach virus. I took a Covid test and it came out negative so that was good. Also on top of that, I tore a muscle in my abdomen don’t ask how. Now I am all better from being sick but still in pain because of my torn muscle. Seems to take forever too. The worst is that I can’t bend down. It sucks!

Holy Shit! War has broken out in Russia vs Ukraine. I asked Helen what she thought of it and she has told me. What can I do? Truth. None of the common people can do anything about it. I know that Helen hates Putin ever since we have been friends so I understand. I don’t know what will happen but I will be watching. One can only pray for the people of both countries because only Putin and his followers want this.

I feel so much better! I had a tooth pulled on Thursday. I have to say that it was the easiest ever! The dentist didn’t have to rip my jaw off to get it out. In fact, I didn’t feel it come out at all. Funny I told him FYI I am a bleeder. He is taking out the tooth and he is like oh, well you did warn me. Oh, that’s some blood. LOL! Good thing I warned him. He had blood all over his fingers. That’s average for me. He was so great at it and explained everything. I have never had anybody explain things to me like that ever and I had a lot of teeth taken out. I learned things I didn’t know. Like the gauze has to be wet to put it back in and to keep in there for long periods of time. Not keep taking it out. I used to do that. Made the process a lot easier.

Made an appointment to see my doctor about my anxiety. Getting that done. Also going to get a dental implant this year. Making changes that are good for me.

Not much going on this week. Just your average week for only one thing. *Sigh*. I have a toothache. Seeing the dentist on Monday. Why always me?

I did finish these though:

It’s a strange thing. Before when I wanted children all I could dream about is having children and dreaming about what they would be like. That’s pretty much all I dreamt about for years and years. Most of the time I dislike it because I would remember when I was younger and I would dream of things that weren’t real. Like being a superhero with powers and such of that nature. Like actually having fun in my dreams. Maybe being a vampire or whatever. Who knows. It’s not like I didn’t dream about other things but it was mostly that.

When we decided not to have children. Guess what? My dreams totally changed. I know dream of cool things. Things that can’t be real but I have dreams where I am having a lot of fun. I am one of those people who can remember dreams not all but most. I can also at the beginning of sleep control them. Not all the time but sometimes. Until I fall into a deep sleep and don’t remember anything. It’s pretty great and also my mood seems happier.

It wasn’t meant to be but for the better. It’s strange how one thing can be focused on so intently and so deeply. When it doesn’t happen it can be really sad. Trust I went through a lot of sadness about it.

I don’t feel that way anymore. I feel like I can enjoy life as is. I can enjoy the children already in my life. Like my niece and nephews. Then I can go home and enjoy my fur baby.

I am enjoying life now and I am happy.

Jeff and I got our boosters on Tuesday. Jeff had a bit of fatigue. I got it bad. I had a lump in my throat Tuesday and Wednesday all day. Felt like throwing up. Felt very fatigued and that feeling you get when you are sick that you are not there. Had that all Wednesday. I was super tired too. I predicted I would because my second shot was the same. Now I am all better and I got to say it was worth it.

Been trying to try other coffee. To expand my taste. LOL! I want to try something different. I tried this from Costco. I was looking at reviews of the Costco coffees and this was the only one that had the best reviews.

WOW! This IS the best coffee from Costco. It does not punch you in the face coffee. I don’t like bold or medium even though this is medium. The taste is mild and very good. Will get it again.

Not too much going on this week. Let’s see….

My back feels better. Now I am back to me. I started Keto again right on the first. It seems a bit easier this time. I think because I don’t leave the house as often. No temptations. I admit I am a little scared again of Covid. There is an outbreak in my town and Jeff had to work the whole week at home because of it. We are going to get our boosters next week.

I made this cross-stitch because I thought it was funny:

I mean yes to both. They are nuts and we are nuts. LOL!!