This week I went to see the TMJ doctor but not really at the same time. lol! I had an in-depth x-ray of my mouth. I don’t actually see him till August 19. I did get more pain pills. That was fun, not. My insurance didn’t cover the pills so I had to pay. So that sucked.
Nothing really else going on this week. Jeff got new glasses but that’s it. Just life.
I saw my parent’s puppy!
His name is Tank and he is 11 weeks old. We went to see him on Wednesday. He is just the best! He loves attention. Instead of walking places, he hops everywhere. It was so fun to see something so small.
He sleeps upside down! Look at that white stripe belly! So cute!
I wore him out playing with him. He doesn’t make a whole of noise either. It was fun seeing him.
MY TEETH!!! They hurt so badly!
Now I gotta wear my nightguard all day and all night. It’s a pain! Literally too because I am in pain. I see the doctor on August 5th. One more week and I hope he can give me somthing or just have a tooth removed it’s been since MARCH!!! I don’t know how much more I can handle. Teeth pain sucks so much!
In Sept we going on vacation. I have decided to get a flash tattoo. Hell, why not I want to get a tiny dinosaur for $20. I am going to do it. It’s going on my ankle.
This Saturday is a fundraiser for April. It’s earlier in the morning so I will be done earlier in the day and it won’t be too hot either.
Saw April in her home. She is looking good. Her cat Sage is super happy she is home. I am happy for her. Going to have her charity event on July 27. Thanks to Chrissy. I hope it’s not a million degrees outside. Been absolutely hot out!
I am planning my sleeve tattoo!! I have consultations in Oct. I am going to get to half-sleeve lower of steampunk. I am super excited it’s going to be my right arm.
Thursday was the 4th of July our Independence Day. Went to mom’s house. Some of my aunts and uncles were there and some of my cousins. It was a fun day.
My mom had her friend Kathy. I have to say she was judgemental. You know how you can tell if someone is being judgemental towards you. Yes, that was her. She was judgemental about my hair being super short and my zombie tattoo. Damn I didn’t like how she said things to me. Also, my tattoos aren’t for anyone else but me.
My cousin Jeff was there and we played cards like we always do. Okay, my Uncle Dan is old! Cousin Jeff always plays these games with a billion rules! So many! Can tell that Uncle Dan was having trouble remembering them. Damn, even I can’t ever remember the rules. It’s like damn dude, keep it simple. I also got in trouble for going out of turn. Funny, cousin Jeff yelled at me and my Jeff was ready to get off the couch and yell at him for yelling at me. Lol! I love that man. Turns out it wasn’t my fault my cousin Reuben was going out of turn. I didn’t get an apology. I don’t really like my cousin Jeff anyway.
It was Tex’s birthday! He turned 6! I can’t believe he is 6. Where did the time go?!
Awe Happy birthday to our baby!
April and I made up. I was pretty upset just because I was scared something awful happened to her. But we are good now.
I went to see a TMJ specialist. I was worried because the reviews for this place were terrible. It didn’t help that the nurse to help me had zero personality which made me even more nervous about it. However! The doctor was amazing! He had a great personality and absolutely knew what he was talking about. Also, he told me he would not give up on me and would find the answer to why I was in so much pain.
I was getting depressed about my mouth. I had gone to the dentist 3 times this month alone. The dentist keeps saying nothing is wrong with my teeth, but why do they hurt? No one knows the answer to this question. I can’t have them pulled so what do I do? I was crushed on Monday because the dentist said that. Finally, he said why don’t you see a TMJ specialist maybe they can help you. I was crushed also because they couldn’t get me in till August. Until a cancelation and I got to see him on Thursday.
I will see him again in August for an in-depth X-ray. They can look at the muscles in my jaw! That’s cool! I want answers to why my jaw hurts, why my teeth hurt, and how to fix it. I feel like he can really help me. I am happy for that!
I saw the endodontist and he and I had a good conversation. He explained how a tooth works. I find it fascinating when they explain that to me. The fact of the matter is he has no idea what’s going on and I figured this is how the conversation was going to happen. I understand my case is strange. So, the conclusion is I have to take it out. He did give me a full refund, that’s great!
I went to the dentist on Thursday for another tooth. Came to the conclusion I am going to take that one out too. I am going to put two implants there. It just sucks because it’s my two side teeth in the front of my mouth.
I am mad sort of? Not because of the dentist. That is just how it is. I am mad at April. I am so sick of everyone having main character syndrome. She called me while I was at the dentist. Nothing I could do then. Then calls and calls, I had to put on do not disturb. Then I call her, and she sobbing. Telling me she has nowhere to go and asking if she can come and live with me.
She told me she couldn’t go home because she needed someone to help her use the restroom and shower. I told her she needed to go to a nursing home. She was crying. I said my home wasn’t suitable for her. First of all, we have steps to get into our home and we don’t have a bed for a guest. I was also worried that Tex would hurt her because he isn’t the most gentle dog. He sometimes plows into you not knowing how strong he is. Then that made her sob even more. I told her if you can’t get into a nursing home, yes you can live with us until we can get you in the nursing home. She really needs a nurse to be with her.
I told her to call me either way. Never heard from her. All I have done is bend over backward for her for years. Move her, take her, here and there, I am done. Fuck this! She can be so selfish. Believe it or not, I got to deal with my own shit as well, not just worry about her. I mean jeez she is 40! What is up with this? It takes literal seconds to be like I am here in a nursing home or something. I am done. I should care but I am having trouble finding where my feelings of care are. I just don’t. I think it has been just so much with Adam and his main character syndrome. That has shaped me to not give into the main character’s syndrome to others and that includes April.
I don’t know what will happen. I am mad and I don’t care at the same time. It’s a strange thing. Oh well….which is my motto of life.
On Wednesday, April told me she had an accident. She fell off her bike bad! She did have her helmet which is good because she fell on her head. Her face is all torn up and she broke her knee. April has to have surgery on her knee they are going to put a pin in it. I feel so bad for her! She won’t be able to move around completely for 6 months.
My mouth still hurts on and on. I am going to go see the endodontist on Tuesday. I feel like it will be never ending. Now, I can’t decide if it’s one tooth feeling sympathy for another. I am so sick of being in tooth pain.
A cheer up pic: A lab with his balls
I didn’t want to blog last week. Being human. Anyway, let’s go back to last week. On May 28th which was a Tuesday I went to the dentist to get a new night guard. I was super dreading it and had so much anxiety! Because last time he was combative and treated me like a child. It was fine and I feel like I got him back. I know it shouldn’t be that deep. Which is my new saying. lol! Am I hip yet? Joking! Do people still say hip? Probably not. Oh well!
Anyway, we had a conversation about my teeth and I told him, I would see a neurologist if he wanted me to. He said yes and I told him I needed a referral and he said he would. Been over a week, I don’t think he did it. Now that’s not accountability which he harped on me to go see one and yet he didn’t do it. They would have called me already. Thanks for more anxiety!
Then I had another tooth hurt. I went to see the other dentist there. I was so nervous! I got that feeling that maybe he pawned me off to the other dentist. Probably not that deep. I saw the other dentist and she was amazing! Her dental assistance was so great! They replaced an old filing. I am good with that. Very positive visit.
I decorated our lawn:
I love how some glow in the dark!
We had some wicked storms this week! Feel so bad for Tex. He was so scared he lived on his chairs for days. Of course, he got his CBD. That helped him sleep through some of it.
Now we are supposed to have some hot summer days. We will see.