We had a blizzard and so now we have winter. I hate it.
I am finally doing it! I finally can make granny squares. Now I can make a blanket. I have always wanted to. Now I am making all kinds of colors. Can’t wait to put it all together.
I did it! I ignored my brother for days. Then I forgot that he actually messaged me. Lol! Which is great! I am learning not to be available to him all the time.
Happy New Year! I am still here!
This represents me right now. It’s a storm in my brain. This year I am going to change myself from inside out. Already started my diet and am feeling good about it. Doing Keto again. Trying to drink more water as well which is hard to do sometimes. I know I can do it though.
Before I get into something else. Got my tattoo done on Dec 26. Took about 2 hours. So fast. I love it. This fresh:
This is healing:
Hahaha, look at that plasma. Anyway, it’s all scabby now. In this pic, you can see the purple which I love. The tattoo artist said it would make it pop more when all healed. I am like cool do it. Turned out great.
My feelings were completely hurt by Adam. Here is how it started. We have a siblings group and he was complaining he didn’t have any money and had to pay this this amount. No one responded and he was like okay thanks for everyone responding. I called him out and said he doesn’t respond for days or even weeks when I message him and no one knows what to say about the money thing.
He got really pissy towards me and demanded an apology. I did apologize but it really hurt me. Then even more so when I talk to the parents about it. Found out even more stuff that he has been lying about so many things. I was super hurt.
As I am an overthinker. I thought about it so much. It hurt so much. After some days I have decided something. I love him but we need to be separate. Here is the thing, I think a lot about us growing up and the bond we had. However, that isn’t how it is as adults. I need to let go of that version of that relationship. Our relationship isn’t and never will be that again.
I feel at peace with this. I also will not be engaging with my siblings as well. I need to stop with all that. I am sick of being hurt by them and I know they don’t think about me the way I think of them from time to time.
This year is about not only healing my body but my mind. I am determined to do so this year.
Here I am again feeling mad about my family. I am tired of this. Ugh! FAMILY! We have a chat group of the siblings and I told Chrissy. I told her good luck getting money from Adam. As we are going in for parents gift every year. Then Chrissy said Adam you going in with the gift? Of course, Adam complains he has to pay rent and a high bill. I called him out because at this point I am done. We all have problems it’s called life. He complains so much and the others let him get away with it. I am done. This new year I am not holding back anymore. I am done with his shit or anyone else’s shit.
Something awesome. I am getting another tattoo. A lot smaller one. I am getting it Dec 26. Will share afterward. Excited!
You know me I LOVE coffee! Jeff made me this shelve:
I absolutely love it!
On Wed we went to Milwaukee to get Jeff’s transmission for his car. We always say going to Milwaukee is no big deal. But then we get there and we are like, I can’t wait to leave. There’s always so much traffic there and stop and go too. Also, the guy who he bought this piece from and the guy talked on and on about cars. It was cold outside too. Then we went home. We are funny like that. Lol!
To be completely honest I had a mental health breakdown on Tuesday. This is what happened. On Monday I had a dentist appointment to fix a filling. I was completely nervous! I haven’t been that nervous since I first went to that dentist. I was sweating and my hands were red. They get that way when I am super nervous. I was super worried about having a shot to the roof of my mouth. That hurts so much plus it’s sore for days afterwards for me. The fact that I had to say over and over I was very nervous got to me this time. Instead of a shot to the roof of the mouth, I got a shot in the upper part of my lip on the inside. Talk about so much hurt!! After numb I was fine but after the numbness went away it was days of hurt.
I felt so embarrassed about how nervous I was even though everyone else was like “It’s fine. We understand.” I don’t know, it really affected me this time. On Tuesday all I wanted to do was lay in bed for an extra hour. Couldn’t even do that because two idiots outside were being so loud. That I couldn’t just have peace. I broke down and had a good cry. Now I am all better.
Last Thursday was Thanksgiving. It was a different kind of Thanksgiving. We only stayed for 3 hours. Usually, we stay for 6 or more, depending on. We played a game with mom. We ate. Tell you what eating at Thanksgiving used to be so stuff can’t move. Now it’s so puny. Korrie my new cousin made the turkey and there wasn’t much there. It was so pathetic. I am glad to leave only after 3 hours. Not a lot of people talking to each other either because the Packer game was on.
I finished this cute penguin.
Not a whole lot going on. It’s life. Let’s see….got two new video games. I got Cyberpunk 2077 for all of 25 dollars and Jeff got Sniper Elite 5 which was his Xmas gift because it was $85. Can’t get enough of Cybperpunk but also had to start over because the true fashion of Cyberpunk my save got corrupted. Ugh! Funny though I bought it on Amazon and it came with two discs. LOL! I can’t remember the last time a video game came with two discs.
Jeff is not a gamer and it’s like Jeff search, Jeff heal, JEFF!! LOL!!! I am like look there did you find first aid? Search for more people to get more ammo. LOL! But he said he liked that I pointed it out.
Today is Thanksgiving. It’s the same every year. Eating and playing family poker. I assume.
I was so sick last week. It sucked! Not Covid but a really bad cold. I still have the cough and the gross mucus. That part sucks too. I am on the mend.
When Tex was sick he got bored and licked all his fur off on his leg. What is with our dogs and legs? Anyways we have a moody dog on our hands. He has to keep a bandage on during the day and at night wear the cone of shame. lol!
Not much else going on. Going to see the parents on Sunday for the Packer game at their house. We are bringing Tex with us. It will be the first time in their home. My mom is super excited but my dad isn’t. Lol! Oh well! I am curious how he is going to act. He LOVES my mom.
It has been raining and storming all week. Our poor baby has been so scared this week too. Tex is not a storm dog. He actually hid in the shower and usually, he steers clear of that room. Understandably though since it’s the only room with no windows. Poor baby.
Last weekend we did Pumpkins here they are:
Jeff did the one on the left and I did the other two. Jeff couched me to do that one on the right. It turned out great. I honestly didn’t think I could do it.
We have two huge windows in our living room facing the street. I hate that we have them. They are nice but people think they can just come right up to those windows if I don’t answer the door. This guy knocked on the door and rang the doorbell and I didn’t want to answer. I don’t know this person or what they want. If I don’t answer go away. But not this guy. He came right up to the windows and knocked on the windows while peering in!!! WTF!!! I was sitting in the living room but that doesn’t give anyone the right to come and knock on the windows for my attention. I was so mad when I answered the door. He had gotten the wrong address. Still wtf?!
I almost died. (Again). Seriously I have almost died many times in my life. How am I still here? I am glad I am though. Anyway was eating dinner and I started choking, really badly! I almost had to have Jeff give me the Heimlich maneuver on me. It was crazy! But I was able to help myself. I am okay.
Tex is doing better. We were so worried about him. Just a little cough left. We can’t wait till he gets better.