OMG! This tattoo is unlike any tattoo before it! I found my breaking point of being tattoo. He kept saying almost done, almost done, I just have this little bit. I was shivering which I wasn’t cold, I was at my breaking point.
The pain! The pain is bad! I was crying on Thursday, how bad it hurt in the morning. I am sure I accidentally slept on it at one point. The pain is crazy!
The sign was the worst! All those orange circles hurt sooooooooo badly!!
Why is my family like this? I am totally a person who is organized when it comes to dates. Whether it’s a doctor’s appointment or family get togethers. I should have told my sister that wasn’t doing Christmas this year and stuck to it because the outcome is what I expected. A total clusterfuck is what has happened! I knew it!
I said yes and I regret it. To the time, to not giving gifts to giving gifts, it’s too much! I get so annoyed with the whole thing. So, finally I am like you know what I am going to do what I want. Everyone gets gifts, I don’t care if you got me nothing. That’s how it is.
Another thing is the time. I don’t want to be there for very long and play stupid games. My sis always wants to play the most stupidest games because they have to be kid friendly too. I see you, we eat, presents, talk then I am going home. That’s it. The most annoyed I got is when I wanted to do this at noon because it’s the perfect time to eat, because most people eat at that time. She said her kids don’t get up till noon. I am like really??? She definitely does the gentle parenting thing and it’s so annoying. I wasn’t raised that way. You get up, people are coming over otherwise you are grounded. Also, like Jeff said “Not my problem”. Funny! So, we had to go back and forth for the stupid time. Finally got it.
I rather just spend Christmas with Jeff and Tex. Now I know for next year.
Laster Saturday April and I went to a model horse show. She won some!
I told April this wasn’t for me but I am glad we went. I mostly wanted to hang out with April.
Strange thing is they never turned on the lights for the restroom, had to use the phone for a flashlight. Not sure why they did that. One of the judges was such a bitch. She actually told April that one of her model horse’s was fat, a model horse…..Ok.
Pumpkins caved. I did one tooth and the 3rd pumpkin. Jeff did owl and creepy face. Turned out great!
Lots of things to hit me with my mental health. The first thing is I really wanted to go on that shot to lose weight and insurance wants to fight it. So, unsure if I would be able to get it.
Second, Adam asked for $700 dollars but not just me all the siblings and their spouses. Oh woes me bullshit. I left the chat. Then he said really nasty shit to me and told me we are not siblings anymore. That he is going to block me on all socials and delete all pics of me and him. He did in fact unfriend me on FB. So, I blocked him on everything. Phone number, Instagram and my YouTube channel. I DO NOT want him in my life. It hurt he said this just because I didn’t want to give him money which I don’t have. I think he is going to regret this decision because he can’t come back in my life for a very, very long time if ever.
After hearing that, I got stung by a wasp in my middle finger. Which everything just in today Friday, I cried a lot! I was in pain, mentally and physically.
I know it will get better. I have to work on my mental health, it’s struggle sometimes but I know I can. Also, my finger hurts.
Last Friday we celebrated mom’s 70’s birthday. We got her this:
The Gnome is a candle that smells amazing!! She loved both so much! Score! It was Jeff and I and my parents and we had a great time!
This Saturday is celebrate with all the siblings. I don’t want too. I don’t want to go to my sister’s house and celebrate. I feel a way about it, them in general. I don’t know. I rather not. But it’s for my mom so I am going.
Wed Aug 27 was Jeff’s birthday! I can’t believe it, he turned 49. I remember when we were dating that we celebrated his 30th birthday! Time really goes by fast as one grows older. We had Stucc’s Pizza and cheese cake from….get this New York! Yeah Jeff ordered from NY. Which I find funny because his mom would always say this story where Jeff ordered cheese cake from NY. Here he did it again. LOL!!! It was really good though.
Happy birthday Jeff, love you!
My mom is turning 70 on Sept 9. Mom was like plan a birthday for me. I said what do you want. We talked and I said I’ll ask Chrissy her suggestions. Message Chrissy and all I get is projection to me. All about her life and how dad should plan the party not her. I didn’t ask her, I just asked for suggestions!
After a week mom said what she wanted. A membership to the botanical gardens. That’s easy. Wish she would have just said that at first. Then Chrissy is like we do it at my house. What happened projecting on all your life problems? Then I said we will get a cake for the party. Instead of being nice. My sister in law thanks Chrissy but not me. I am the one who has to go and get a gift card and the cake. Where’s my thanks. I think she does that on purpose.
As I get older, I am done with siblings. I am just done with them and their lives. I have been done with Adam since my birthday in March. I like NOT talking to him. I am done with my sister and other brother too. Invite me, don’t invite me. I’ll just show up whenever. I am back to keeping to myself with my life to them.
Finally made it to the lake this year. Been awhile since I have been. Still looks the same.
Jeff and I decided to talk to our doctor and start taking Mounjaro. So we can start losing some serious weight. We see him in October. Kinda nervous about the shot but if it helps, I am for it.
Still working on the kitchen. I was thinking it sort of rolled into, fix this or that. But it will be worth it in the end. It will look nice and we did it for a lot cheaper than having someone come in and do it for us.
Last week I was sick! I was worried that I had Covid because I had a lump in my throat that wouldn’t go away. When I have gotten Covid I get a lump in my throat. That wasn’t what I had. I don’t know what I had. But I was sick for a good 4 days, then on top of that I got my period. It was a really miserable week last week and weekend.
Jeff has made great progress on the kitchen. Thankfully I am all better and can help this weekend with the kitchen. Mostly painting which I don’t mind and he doesn’t like to.
Fourth of July came and went. Alice looked really depressed and understandable getting a divorce. She told her kids call dad when you get a chance and her son said “I am NOT calling him”. Sad that there has to be riff too. It was nice to see them though. Jared wasn’t wearing his ring. He so wanted to be a husband. I hope one day he can find his person and Alice too.
It was hot on Friday. We all were sweaty and complaining how hot it was. We got to hang out with Tank. Everyone wants to see the dog. It was a strange day. No one asked me to play poker with them. People didn’t really want to talk about anything. It just seemed like people wanted to leave and not be there which I never felt any time before at any family get togethers.