There was not a whole lot going on this week. I decided to watch strange cartoon movies for my YouTube channel, roolikes2review. I came to find out that I had seen most of these from my childhood. I don’t know why these were considered children’s films. LOL!

For example Yellow Submarine by the Beatles. I have seen this before but was young. Wow! I liked that movie even though so strange! Of course, the music was great. Then I watched Forbidden Planet, I have never seen that, and yeah strange. I watched the Hobbit and noticed I had seen this before and it was sort of boring and I like Lord of the Rings. I finished the Lord of the Rings cartoon version of course and yes I liked it. Have also seen this before. Who knew?!

I am having fun watching these strange cartoon movies.

Here it is my new TMJ mouthpiece. I have to wear it for 2 years. It’s okay. I can’t eat with it; it just sits in my mouth. Hard to talk in it though, I have to learn how too. My mouth is pretty sore but I hope it will get easier. This will repair the cartilage in my jaw joints.

Nothing else really going on other than this. A week and a half will be vacation time!

Jeff’s sister Dawn came for a visit for two days. Tex was IN LOVE with her. LOL!

He was being so silly with her. Had to some times tell him not to be a Velcro dog. lol! But he was a good boy. Also, Ken and Milena dog Yoda came over. NEVER AGAIN! They have this little dog and was totally be being a brat. Milena was afraid that Tex would hurt him. We are like no. He was such a good boy! In fact Tex stood by us more than seeing this dog. Yoda would lunge and Tex and bark non stop at him, gave our baby anxiety. We felt bad for Tex. That dog can never come over again.

Jeff is now 48! Happy birthday babe!

I love this pic! I am framing this pic. It’s wonderful! We had a wonderful time with Dawn. Jeff had a great birthday.

I got answers to my mouth sort of. It’s not my teeth it’s the muscles and nerves in my upper jaw. This is good because I don’t want to pull any more teeth. Bad because I need more tests. I am getting a TMJ mouthguard. In the end, my dentist was right but it was a lot of tears and being upset to get to this point though, and money. Ugh sometimes I feel like I bleed cash I don’t have. I think sometimes everyone feels that way. Just sucks!

On Tuesday I spent the whole day with April. We did a lot of horse model stuff. LOL! I can’t believe how many she has! They are so cool! It was nice to see April again. She is doing amazing! She is slowly walking up the steps! It’s awesome!

Jeff’s sister Dawn is spending Friday through Monday with us. We haven’t seen her since 2019. It will be fun to see her again.

This week I went to see the TMJ doctor but not really at the same time. lol! I had an in-depth x-ray of my mouth. I don’t actually see him till August 19. I did get more pain pills. That was fun, not. My insurance didn’t cover the pills so I had to pay. So that sucked.

Nothing really else going on this week. Jeff got new glasses but that’s it. Just life.

MY TEETH!!! They hurt so badly!

Now I gotta wear my nightguard all day and all night. It’s a pain! Literally too because I am in pain. I see the doctor on August 5th. One more week and I hope he can give me somthing or just have a tooth removed it’s been since MARCH!!! I don’t know how much more I can handle. Teeth pain sucks so much!

In Sept we going on vacation. I have decided to get a flash tattoo. Hell, why not I want to get a tiny dinosaur for $20. I am going to do it. It’s going on my ankle.

This Saturday is a fundraiser for April. It’s earlier in the morning so I will be done earlier in the day and it won’t be too hot either.

I saw the endodontist and he and I had a good conversation. He explained how a tooth works. I find it fascinating when they explain that to me. The fact of the matter is he has no idea what’s going on and I figured this is how the conversation was going to happen. I understand my case is strange. So, the conclusion is I have to take it out. He did give me a full refund, that’s great!

I went to the dentist on Thursday for another tooth. Came to the conclusion I am going to take that one out too. I am going to put two implants there. It just sucks because it’s my two side teeth in the front of my mouth.

I am mad sort of? Not because of the dentist. That is just how it is. I am mad at April. I am so sick of everyone having main character syndrome. She called me while I was at the dentist. Nothing I could do then. Then calls and calls, I had to put on do not disturb. Then I call her, and she sobbing. Telling me she has nowhere to go and asking if she can come and live with me.

She told me she couldn’t go home because she needed someone to help her use the restroom and shower. I told her she needed to go to a nursing home. She was crying. I said my home wasn’t suitable for her. First of all, we have steps to get into our home and we don’t have a bed for a guest. I was also worried that Tex would hurt her because he isn’t the most gentle dog. He sometimes plows into you not knowing how strong he is. Then that made her sob even more. I told her if you can’t get into a nursing home, yes you can live with us until we can get you in the nursing home. She really needs a nurse to be with her.

I told her to call me either way. Never heard from her. All I have done is bend over backward for her for years. Move her, take her, here and there, I am done. Fuck this! She can be so selfish. Believe it or not, I got to deal with my own shit as well, not just worry about her. I mean jeez she is 40! What is up with this? It takes literal seconds to be like I am here in a nursing home or something. I am done. I should care but I am having trouble finding where my feelings of care are. I just don’t. I think it has been just so much with Adam and his main character syndrome. That has shaped me to not give into the main character’s syndrome to others and that includes April.

I don’t know what will happen. I am mad and I don’t care at the same time. It’s a strange thing. Oh well….which is my motto of life.