I didn’t want to blog last week. Being human. Anyway, let’s go back to last week. On May 28th which was a Tuesday I went to the dentist to get a new night guard. I was super dreading it and had so much anxiety! Because last time he was combative and treated me like a child. It was fine and I feel like I got him back. I know it shouldn’t be that deep. Which is my new saying. lol! Am I hip yet? Joking! Do people still say hip? Probably not. Oh well!

Anyway, we had a conversation about my teeth and I told him, I would see a neurologist if he wanted me to. He said yes and I told him I needed a referral and he said he would. Been over a week, I don’t think he did it. Now that’s not accountability which he harped on me to go see one and yet he didn’t do it. They would have called me already. Thanks for more anxiety!

Then I had another tooth hurt. I went to see the other dentist there. I was so nervous! I got that feeling that maybe he pawned me off to the other dentist. Probably not that deep. I saw the other dentist and she was amazing! Her dental assistance was so great! They replaced an old filing. I am good with that. Very positive visit.

I decorated our lawn:

I love how some glow in the dark!

We had some wicked storms this week! Feel so bad for Tex. He was so scared he lived on his chairs for days. Of course, he got his CBD. That helped him sleep through some of it.

Now we are supposed to have some hot summer days. We will see.

Mother’s Day was last Sunday. Chrissy thought it was a good idea for a video call for all the siblings and the parents. I was so upset on this call! I wanted to hang up but no I put on my fake smile and endured. I was upset because everyone just forgave Adam and moved on. But not too long ago he threatened to commit suicide and that’s okay….This is not okay behavior. I can’t just forgive and then forget. That’s crazy! It made me feel so uncomfortable that everyone was laughing and having a good time while not too long ago that happened. No wonder he gets away with that behavior. It’s gross.

Then Chrissy texted me asking if I was okay. I wanted to say NO! If I said that, then she would tell Mom and be a whole thing. I just said yeah. I have to stay away from Adam. He is toxic and I will never be okay with his behavior ever again.

Went to my ear, nose, and throat appointment. Was so hoping they would find something. Guess what? I am normal. My hearing is good and so are my sinuses. All they gave me was a nose spray, which I am not going to take. I was sick when I went. All they wanted was to treat my sickness with a nose spray. I just can’t! I hate putting anything in my nose. I guess I will just have pain every so often for no reason. Not sure what else to do.

Then I went to my regular doctor the next day. He gave me some medicine since my cough had moved to my lungs. It really helped. I guess I should have gotten some meds beforehand. The meds helped so much! I had a really deep cough for weeks.

Other than that nothing else. Trying to get better.

I got sick!!!! I am sick of 2024. Even though Jeff said I can’t be done with the whole year. But I am. I feel a bit down because I keep getting sick which makes me feel stuck. I feel stuck in reading as I am trying to read more this year. I feel stuck that I can’t learn something new because I keep getting sick or being in pain.

I am worried about April. She is having a lot of problems health-wise. We were supposed to see each other on Monday. She told me we couldn’t because she was coughing up blood. I told her to go to the ER. At the ER she told me they treated her unsympathetic. I told her that’s typical. Not a lot of compassion anymore at the ER. They did nothing for her.

Since then she’s been sick with coughing up some blood and throwing up. She sees a doctor in June but now she has to work while being this sick. A whole month she has to go this way. I feel so bad for her.

For over a month now I have been in pain. Ugh! Finally got a hold of an ear, nose, and throat doctor. Can’t see them till May but at least I will get it done. My ear hurts and it feels like someone is always punching my nose. It has to be my sinus.

My parents are back. I showed them the strawberry tattoo. At first, I told them I got a new tattoo and they will like it. They said they wouldn’t. I showed them and they loved it. lol! We went out to eat and had a good time.

I got this blanket done for April:

The Adam thing is starting to become a lot less! I knew I could do it. I had to be more patient with my mind. He hasn’t contacted me in a long while, so that also helps.

Jeff hurt his back then got better. But then…got sick. Which sucks because we were going to go hang out with my sister and family.

I am almost done with April’s blanket. Will take a pic later. Yes, there isn’t anything really going on.