Life

Monday November 13 I had to take my mom all over the place for appointments. It was an experience that is for sure. First of all I slept over the night before because her first appointment was at 9 a.m. On Sunday Jeff drove me over there and we decided to have dinner with them. We didn’t tell my parents we got a new car which I didn’t think was a big deal. However that was a big deal. All night they asked why I didn’t tell them we got a new car. My mom said you get a new car you say. It’s like we got a new family member or something the way they were acting. I don’t feel I need to share everything with my parents. I only say that because I use to all the time but my parents have been so passive towards me so much this year that I decided to revert and not share everything. I didn’t know I was going to get the third degree from them about a car.

Also on Sunday we all went to a Mexican restaurant. I have to say I didn’t like our waitress. I feel there is a time to be sarcastic and a time to not be sarcastic and she was so sarcastic! It was to the point of being rude. Dad and I both got this huge burrito. I couldn’t finish all of it and my dad gave me the strangest look. Now normally yes I could eat all of that but I can’t anymore since I have lost weight, I just don’t eat as much as I use too. I was thinking he could have taken the rest of mine and eaten it later. It wouldn’t have been a big deal.

Monday we had to get up early at 7 a.m. to make sure we get to the appointment on time since it was about an hour away from my parents home. We had to leave the latest 8:15 a.m. but that also meant getting my mom in the car. Since my mom had surgery on her right foot, in a boot and a scooter would take some time to get in the car. So at 8:13 I am telling her we NEED to go and she is like “We have two minutes.” Then I told her yeah but you have to get in the car. Didn’t leave to almost 8:30.

On the way over there she is like speed, speed to get there. Now if we  were on time I wouldn’t haven’t had to haul ass over to her appointment. I only sped a little to get there because I was thinking of if we get pulled over no way we were going to make that appointment. Get this, this appointment was only 20 minutes! Like what?! So after that we went to breakfast then did some shopping. At 1 she had another appointment near the first place so we couldn’t go back home.

The second appointment was longer. It was an eye appointment. It was sort of cool because this place was in a hospital. So they have a little food court area. While my mom was in the doctor’s office I was looking outside. In the waiting area there are these huge windows. Anyone waiting can look outside which is the parking lot. I am just staring out the window watching people park and go  into the building.  There was this one woman in a white van parking in a handicap spot. She backed up so far that she bend the handicap sign. I was laughing! OMG! Those signs are in concrete as well, it had to do some damage to her van. Then she gets out trying to bend it back. I couldn’t help it, it was so funny!

What’s not funny is this guy who walks in a little after that. There is no one sitting in the waiting area but me. So where does this guy sit? Right next to me. Ugh I hate that. I brought a book to read so I just ignored him. This guy was rude. He takes out his cellphone and makes a call however he puts the other person on speaker phone. I hate when people do that. No one wants to hear your conversation. On top of that when the nurse calls for him he makes her wait so he can keep talking to this person. Rude!

After that appointment I bought my mom a coffee and we split something to eat in the food court area of the hospital. It was actually pretty good. After that we went home.

 

Life

I feel sad and mad at the same time. In December I am putting together the making of popcorn balls. I love making popcorn balls with my dad. We don’t get to do it every year because a lot of the other family do not want do it. So this year I took charge and set a date. I also am making sure how it’s going to go, to the time to the food, everything to make sure it happens this year. I would even just make popcorn balls with my dad and no one else. However good news my siblings and their families are coming along with one of my aunts. I have it all figured out doing this event. I think it will be fun.

What I am sad and bad about is my mother-in-law and father-in-law. Way back when I used to get along with my mother-in-law. Everyone would say how lucky I was to have a great relationship with her, then she died.  Then my father-in-law got remarried which is fine. But I miss my mother-in-law very much especially around the holidays. Of course Jeff misses his mom too, all the time. However the holidays was awesome with her and I didn’t realize how cool it was till she passed.

We invited the in-laws to the popcorn balls event. The event doesn’t take place till December 16. That is a long ways away. We got an email yesterday stating they wouldn’t be able to attend. The email sounded so formal as well as we weren’t even family. Every time we invited them to something they cancel. They have never come to event ever.

Jeff asked the other day if we should invited them over for a Packer game. My simple response was no. My elaborate reasoning was if they want to come over they know our number. I don’t ever want to invited them to anything ever again. They always have some sort of lame excuse or just simply say they can’t. It makes me sad and mad at the same time.

 

Life

I am feeling behind or ahead? I hate daylight savings time. There really any reason to have this anymore. The day of and the day afterwards I get behind or ahead in this case of the day. I hate it.

Something pissed me off. My friend April had her first fall off a horse. We always joke about it but I never really wanted to ever fall. She did and she is really hurt. On top of that her instructor made her get back up on the horse. The horse was so freaked out she almost fell again. I guess one of the rules of horse riding is you fall you get back up on the horse. It’s supposed to boost confidence well it had the opposite effect on April. I feel really badly for her.

She hurt her back and broke a finger. 

Also what really makes me mad is she was seeking council from other riders who have fallen. Somehow her teacher found out and called her and yelled at her. What kind of teacher does that? I have met this guy now several times and I think the last time we met was a fluke. Him being so nice and all. I am thinking he is a two face person. Sometimes I just get these feelings about people and he is one of them. I think it was unfair of him treating her like that plus by acting like an asshole he has hurt her confidence. I know she doesn’t want to quit and there really isn’t any other places she can learn to ride. I just hope it all works out for her.

Tis the season. Ugh! Can it be Halloween forever?

You know I don’t really like Christmas, haven’t since I was a kid. This year I am not going to work so hard at it.  It’s going to be a gift card Christmas. I am not making anything for anyone except Kaela and Adam.

Not for Christmas I made slippers for my parents. When I see them again I will give them to them.

Life

I’m better per say. I got a sinus infection however depression is pushed away. Feels like the negativity cloud is now sunshine!

Even so my parents got mad at me over something super stupid! Last month my dad stubbed his toe. But this month it was still bothering him. So he went to the doctor and found out he broke his foot. My dad group texts everyone that he broke his foot. I was going to respond but I was sleeping then later I forgot. My brain goes to fizzle mode when sick. It’s not like I didn’t respond on purpose. He took it as I didn’t care about him breaking his foot which is a lie, I do care. So he got mad at me and my mom was mad I could tell that I didn’t respond. Isn’t that the most stupidest thing to get mad about? So after talking to my mom, I texted my dad to ask how he was doing. He ignored me because he was mad. The next day I texted him if he went to the doctor. That is when he responded. Why be mad about something like that. I really do care and didn’t do that on purpose.

Jeff and I drove three hours to Dodgeville and back home for a Ford Explorer. That was a long night of driving, six hours. It was silly because the maps took us through all these little towns. At one point granted it was night but we came up to a church with a cemetery next to it. There was nothing else around this church and the church was lit up too, made it super creepy looking! Finally got to the dealership around nine o’clock at night. I got to drive it back home as Jeff drove the truck. This vehicle makes me look small when driving. Ha!

October 25 we went to Witt Auto dealership and had the Explorer get new tires and all that good stuff it needed. Like oil change and it needed to be reprogrammed and such. We spent 5 hours there! It was crazy long time to wait. It’s nice there though. Even though there is one strange thing at the Witt Auto dealership in the woman’s bathroom there is no garbage in the stalls. Other than that everyone there is super friendly even saw one of the Witt brothers. Never been to a dealership that didn’t make feel like leaving immediately. I really hate being in those places. First I have no clue about cars so whatever they say goes right over my head with all those fancy terms. However there they explained everything in laymen terms so I didn’t feel stupid. Another thing it’s super clean and super nice in there! I am impressed actually. Also to pay for most of this we actually sold our Escape. The guy didn’t even negotiate the price! Also we sold the ps3 with a whole bunch of games.

I get little sad about selling my games. Isn’t that a silly thing to be sad about? I just remember playing them all and all the time I spent on them. Also all the money I spent on them like DLC’s. All I can describe it as “Goodbye my digital friends.” Ha!

Speaking of which didn’t know in Until Dawn supposed to keep everyone alive. Oops! I beat it once and I was done with it. I tried to go back to get different story line but you can’t skip the cut-scenes and wow some of those characters are so annoying. So I gave up trying to beat it again.

I bought Dead Island for my PS4. One of my favorites like I said before. But I bought Dead Island Definitive Edition.What’s the difference? Well! They fix some plot holes and the characters look better. They also fixed the level of hard it is. As I play and go further in the story more and more zombies show up that didn’t happen in the PS3 version. Also funny when chopping off limbs or heads they flop like fish out of water. HAHAHA!!! With this addition you get all the mods as well so that’s cool.

 

Life

The last couple of days I have been feeling a bit depressed and I haven’t felt this way in a long time. Ever since I changed my way of thinking I have kept depression away but I do have it. I have had depression since I was a teen because I was bullied really badly in school so I tend to think less of myself. I use to take medication for it but I decided to not take anything and to change my attitude, my way of thinking and my lifestyle to not make depression part of me. But for last few days it has been hanging around.

I have been feeling like others in my if are moving on and I am standing still. I’m not sure how to fix that. My BFF April is learning how to ride horses and one day she will have one. My friend Helen is learning how to play electric guitar and is getting good at it. Jeff started his own business and has a client he is working for. And me I have done nothing. I haven’t really learned any new skills that sounds great like them. I learned how to loom knit, who cares.

To add to my mental misery our Ford Escape died. We can no longer drive it or fix it. On top of that we paid some money towards that vehicle. We got the license renewed, had the oil changed and it was all for nothing. Now that we don’t have that vehicle I can’t go to this wedding I was looking forward too. We do have our truck however can’t really drive it in the winter. I have no idea how we are going to get another vehicle.

Ugh…I give up on this week.

 

 

Until Dawn

I made a new friend. Well gaming friend anyway. It’s a guy Jeff’s works with. Oh! I got up to the Demolisher in Dying Light and can’t beat him. So frustrating! First I ask Jeff can I be Dana’s friend on FB? Jeff is like I don’t care. So I chatted with Dana and asked him if he could come over and beat the Demolisher and he said sure be over tomorrow. Guess what? Just as I thought he never came over. I figured because that always happens to me.

I should have just went with the person who I first thought of. His name is Sam he works with Jeff too. I asked him if he could help me out and he said yes. However while waiting for this I got sick of playing Dying Light. I started over to get better health and in the process got sick of it. Ha! So I was looking at PlayStation Network for games $20 or less to give me a break since Dying Light is my only game.

While looking I saw Evil Within which is on my list of games I want to play but I also saw Until Dawn. While chatting with Sam he said he had Evil Within and his kids play Until Dawn. He only said that he had Evil Within in disc form and told me he would let me borrow it and the next day bring it to work to give to Jeff. Here is the thing: If someone wants to borrow something from me, I make sure they have it the very next day. However in my case if I want to borrow something I don’t get it till days sometimes a week later. So I wasn’t expecting him to give me the game the next day.

Then he said he forgot at it home the next day which like I said I figured. However he said he would bring it over after work. What?! And guess what he did! Along with Until Dawn. Awesome!

I got them on Tuesday and I already played all the way through of Until Dawn. Until Dawn is choice game and they base it on the Butterfly Effect theory. So whatever choice you make no matter what effects the story. Now I love the choose your own games. They are super fun! I wish I could remember the title of the first video game I played where my choices mattered. I’m sure it was on PS2. I remember it being strange but it was the first time I encountered quick time events. However in that game if you didn’t press the buttons you died. Now in these games you don’t press it turns into funnies!

There are parts of this game that are annoying and of course makes no sense. I know video game logic!

Near the beginning two characters have to go another cabin which the other character says it’s just up the trail.  No it’s not just up the trial it takes FOREVER to get there. Now I know they are trying to prolong the game but seriously. The characters are a male and female. By the end of getting to that cabin I wish she would die. So annoying! In fact her and another female character are super annoying and wish for their demise. Ha!

There is one point where you go a an asylum that closed down. No electricity of course but that is to be expected. Here is one place where it doesn’t make sense. Your character goes to the morgue and you can open several slots where dead bodies would be. As you open them you can see that it is cold in the slots. That doesn’t make sense because there isn’t any electricity so the morgue would not be that cold. I know overthinking but for a game that made the characters look so realistic that could of paid attention to some minor details.

Also the game premise is I would slasher flick. It has jump scares and a creepy guy lurking out in the woods who you see from time to time. But then it switches genres. It goes from slasher to creature feature. I was disappointed how it switched. Would love it as a slasher horror game. Some strange guy out in the woods killing them one by one. But somehow in the middle there is these strange creatures that follow you and try to kill you? What?!

I like when you are talking to the guy who breaks up the game chapters and how his scenery changes throughout the game. The game graphics are amazing!

This is my second time going through the game as I know what to expect I want to change the story and try to kill different characters. HA! I assume some deaths have to be and expect that. I am glad that I didn’t pay for this game as it not as long as I wanted it to be. Since it took not a lot of playing time to go through it.

 

 

 

 

 

Working Out!

I survived! 8 weeks, 5 days a week I worked out!

I hate mornings and there is a morning before coffee? I found there is a morning before coffee. Every morning my first thought was “No! I don’t want to exercise.” Then I got up and go exercise. There were some exercises that I couldn’t do because of my back and I don’t bend that way. So for those I would substitute with another exercises. As long as I was moving it was all good.

Even though I didn’t lose a bunch of weight, I lost around myself which is how my body loses weight. I can fit into some of my clothes I didn’t think I would be able to in a long time. I have energy in the middle of the day AND I can lift heavier things then before. I was skeptical that in 8 weeks I would accomplish anything and found out I accomplished a lot! Also I think I did a hundred squats. Ha! However I have toner legs! I also found out that Yoga isn’t that bad. I have always thought Yoga looked boring and there was no way I would be able to do any because I am not that flexible. But! I found I like Yoga yeah there are some positions I can’t do however I found I really like doing the Pigeon pose. It feels great! I can’t do the Cobra and that one is the one they loved doing but I like the Child Pose was the one they would do with Cobra. Yoga is relaxing! I didn’t find it boring as I thought I would.

I feel good about myself and that is what is important. Will I do this again? Yes! I even want to buy more programs and do those.

Unlike the Rest

I have been noticing something lately. That I am unlike the rest in the wife department. Not sure why that is but YAY!

One being is when Jeff has to go work for his business and he may be gone for a couple of hours or he may be gone all day. This is usually on a Saturday sometimes Sunday. I hear from him how the other wives complain a lot about when they are coming home. Like they call a lot! And they text and ask when they are coming home. I don’t think it’s because they have kids because one does and the other one her kids are out of the house. It’s not that I don’t care it’s I know he is working. In the world of technology things can go great or they can go wrong. When it goes wrong that could take a lot of time to get it back to great or at least good.

The only time I worry is when it start to get dark out. Then I wonder if he is coming home. For example if he leaves at 8 in the morning and it’s starting to be like five o’clock. Then I worry not when he will come home just more I hope he makes it home safely. I think that is understandable but I am not going to call and text a million times to ask him. Jeff is pretty good at letting me know when he is coming home.

Another thing is a constant through my life. Is video games! I know I always say this but I still think it’s funny. Like all guys like video games and you will find that you will have that in common. Um no. That isn’t true and people need to stop saying that. Jeff doesn’t really like them but he will play rock band and when we get Red Dead Redemption 2. I am excited for that one! It’s not that he hates them but he doesn’t really get into them. I can understand that.

It’s funny when the guys came over for the first time and they are like you? Not you Jeff? It’s funny! At least I will always have something to talk to them about.

This last weekend I was talking to my older brother. Right like what? Yeah I went swimming with my parents, Aunt Kathy and Corey and Crayne came too. What is going on?! Strange. Anyway back to the point. He said he has to mow the lawn yet and I was thinking how come Kim doesn’t mow the lawn. My lawn takes me over 2 hours to do. His lawn is tiny may, MAY take 20 minutes. Why can’t she mow the lawn when Crayne is at school? Seriously. And I still have people say you mow the lawn? Like yes. Jeff works and I do that stuff. I still think people think I do nothing since I don’t have a job.  Annoying.

Another thing is I have notice people are surprised about is I help with DIY stuff. I am Handy Man’s Jeff’s helper. Lol! For example Ken was surprised I was going up in the attic to help put up the vent in our bathroom. I know women do that stuff too. I see them in the Menard’s but for me I don’t really like doing that stuff even though afterwards I feel accomplish and I do learn stuff. I have been all over our house. Up in the attic underneath the house under things. Lol! I know my mom, my sister, sister in law wouldn’t do any of those things. Which I think it’s because of how I grew up. My dad made me do all of those things. Like you are going to help me in the attic to put in whatever, or you are going to help me paint or change this. So I apply that to my life now. I COULD say no Jeff I am not going to do that. But instead I am like I will try to help. There are things that I can’t do like I can’t lift really heavy things. Anything over my head that is heavy forget it because I physically can’t do it. At least I try.

Painting in the Park

 

September 14 mom, April and I went to painting in the park. I have wanted to try this where an artist puts pictures up and you have to recreate them by yourself with their instructions. I thought that would be fun. My mom did one and it turned out great! She did a barn next to a colorful tree.

It started out bad right away! At first it was supposed to be in August and the artist called me to change it because she wanted more people to sign up. Which in my opinion is dumb. The class was 30 dollars each right there she already made 90 for all three of us. So what if it was just us. This was a inconvenience to me because I had to go pick up April she lives an hour and forty five minutes away then bring her to my house. That is okay but what really made me mad is the day before our anniversary. In August was perfect because nothing going on the next day. Yeah there were so many more people there. (Being sarcastic.) There only three more people so a total of six people. Could of had it in August.

We got to choose two out of the flowers to paint.

 

 

 

 

I wanted to do the first two. The pink one and the orange one. Yeah that didn’t happen either. Instead it was here is two canvas and I will give you some tips on how to paint flowers.

 

 

 

 

I wouldn’t have paid 30 dollars to paint some flowers that I could do at my house. I can’t draw very well and that is why I wanted to take this class to look like I had some cool flowers I did myself.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Funny I look like a demon in this pic. Strange lighting. I know our flowers were not going to look exactly like the artist but you would think it would be close. None of flowers are close to the original.

 

 

 

 

I dislike my blue green one but the other one is okay. I am disappointed because I wanted to do the flowers I signed up to do. Not just do whatever and paint some flowers on a small canvas. I thought it was a waste of money. It was fun hanging out with April and mom but I can do that on my own time.

 

Happy Birthday Mom!

Saturday was my mom’s birthday she turned 62. However we celebrated on Sunday and it was fun.

 

 

 

 

Everyone was there even Aunt Kathy and Uncle Dave. I have noticed that my parents have been spending a lot time with them since they moved to Green Bay which is good. I remember when I was little I always thought Aunt Kathy was strange as an adult she is still strange but I have a better understanding why. My Aunt Kathy suffers from mental illness plus other health issues. So she isn’t as strange as I thought when I was little.

Funny I wanted to get my mom some balloons for her birthday. So I went to the dollar tree and picked out two balloons and a weight. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I got a butterfly and a leopard print pink balloon. Now I purposely got those because they were pretty. I knew that Bree would like them also that the kids would like to play with them. And guess what? I was right! Bree asked if she could take them home and of course. But I told her she had to ask Nana if she could since I got them for her. LOL!

Here is a good pic of Jeff and I.