I decorated our lawn:
I love how some glow in the dark!
We had some wicked storms this week! Feel so bad for Tex. He was so scared he lived on his chairs for days. Of course, he got his CBD. That helped him sleep through some of it.
Now we are supposed to have some hot summer days. We will see.
Mother’s Day was last Sunday. Chrissy thought it was a good idea for a video call for all the siblings and the parents. I was so upset on this call! I wanted to hang up but no I put on my fake smile and endured. I was upset because everyone just forgave Adam and moved on. But not too long ago he threatened to commit suicide and that’s okay….This is not okay behavior. I can’t just forgive and then forget. That’s crazy! It made me feel so uncomfortable that everyone was laughing and having a good time while not too long ago that happened. No wonder he gets away with that behavior. It’s gross.
Then Chrissy texted me asking if I was okay. I wanted to say NO! If I said that, then she would tell Mom and be a whole thing. I just said yeah. I have to stay away from Adam. He is toxic and I will never be okay with his behavior ever again.
Went to my ear, nose, and throat appointment. Was so hoping they would find something. Guess what? I am normal. My hearing is good and so are my sinuses. All they gave me was a nose spray, which I am not going to take. I was sick when I went. All they wanted was to treat my sickness with a nose spray. I just can’t! I hate putting anything in my nose. I guess I will just have pain every so often for no reason. Not sure what else to do.
Then I went to my regular doctor the next day. He gave me some medicine since my cough had moved to my lungs. It really helped. I guess I should have gotten some meds beforehand. The meds helped so much! I had a really deep cough for weeks.
Other than that nothing else. Trying to get better.
I got sick!!!! I am sick of 2024. Even though Jeff said I can’t be done with the whole year. But I am. I feel a bit down because I keep getting sick which makes me feel stuck. I feel stuck in reading as I am trying to read more this year. I feel stuck that I can’t learn something new because I keep getting sick or being in pain.
I am worried about April. She is having a lot of problems health-wise. We were supposed to see each other on Monday. She told me we couldn’t because she was coughing up blood. I told her to go to the ER. At the ER she told me they treated her unsympathetic. I told her that’s typical. Not a lot of compassion anymore at the ER. They did nothing for her.
Since then she’s been sick with coughing up some blood and throwing up. She sees a doctor in June but now she has to work while being this sick. A whole month she has to go this way. I feel so bad for her.
I didn’t really know what to write for this week until Thursday night. *sigh* So, it’s Adam again….Kaela Adam’s BFF messaged me saying Adam was going to commit suicide. She told him that she would call his parents. He got mad and yelled at her. Told her to leave and she did. Then she messaged me about what was going on. *sigh*
I called mom and told her what was going on. She told me to tell Kaela to call the cops and ask them to do a welfare check. She did that and the cops were out there. I called him no answer. I decided to get my sister to call him and she did. Wouldn’t answer.
Here is the thing. Since I was a teen this has been going on. He threatens to commit suicide but never does it. Sounds bad but the parents and I are sick of his woes me attitude and not helping himself. We all tried over and over helping him and he’s 38 now. He needs to help himself.
He did call me to say he was sorry. I told him to go to the hospital and check yourself in. He has done it before so I know he can do it. I made him promise me to go check himself in. He said he promised and he will do it on Friday. I don’t if he did or what else is going on.
Just have to wait and see what happens next.
For over a month now I have been in pain. Ugh! Finally got a hold of an ear, nose, and throat doctor. Can’t see them till May but at least I will get it done. My ear hurts and it feels like someone is always punching my nose. It has to be my sinus.
My parents are back. I showed them the strawberry tattoo. At first, I told them I got a new tattoo and they will like it. They said they wouldn’t. I showed them and they loved it. lol! We went out to eat and had a good time.
I got this blanket done for April:
I am so tired….Damn this weather. It’s gloomy and ugh it’s going to snow! WHY?!
Alright anyway, I went to Chrissy’s house last Friday and had a lot of fun! The kids bought me a cake. Actually went to the store without their parents and bought me a cake for my birthday. That was so wonderful! Had so much fun with the family. It was funny because we bought the kids some coffee and wow did they get caffeinated high. They were so talkative! It was great to hear about their life. I got some neat gifts.
Saturday we went to see Ken and Milena for our birthdays. It was cool to see them and see their fur babies. We went to Golden Corral and it was good. It was nice to see them.
On Tuesday I went to the dentist. Found out my tooth was dying. I told Jeff too. I said I think this tooth is dying because I had one day where it hurt so bad! I had a really bad headache that day as well. That’s the day it died.
Wednesday we went to see Regina. We haven’t seen her in a long time! It was a good time to see her and her husband Jim. The food was so good. We to Stubborn Brothers pub and it was delicious! I had a light beer and it was tasty. I had a BLT salad and Jeff had a burger. I want to take my parents there. It used to be an old-school movie theater they turned into a restaurant.
Had my root canal on Thursday. I was so impressed! You know me it’s hard to impress me about dental work of any kind. Doctor McHenry was great. He was more personal this time with me. Everyone was so nice too. I felt not as nervous as when I first went there. He told me the root had an infection and he cleaned it out and it was dying at the same time. They didn’t take blood pressure. I thought that was the norm. but this time none. I was relieved for that. Now I should be pain-free in a few days. I hope this is it for the dentist for major things.
It’s my bday on Sunday! I will be 41. Wow!
On Friday going to see Chrissy and family. Then on Saturday going to see the in-laws for family bdays. Sunday is my bday and I am doing nothing.
Bad news I have a tooth that hurts but the tooth is healthy. So, I have to see another dentist to have tests done if it’s a nerve thing instead of the actual tooth. I have a severe headache that goes into my eye. All that helps a bit is Excedrin. I hope they can help me. I can’t with this headache. That’s Tuesday and hoping it’s a solution.
Last week I was so sick! Jeff gave me his cold. Ugh, I am not having a good beginning of the year. I am all better. But jeez!
I am excited for the rest of the week though. Time to have some fun.
The Adam thing is starting to become a lot less! I knew I could do it. I had to be more patient with my mind. He hasn’t contacted me in a long while, so that also helps.
Jeff hurt his back then got better. But then…got sick. Which sucks because we were going to go hang out with my sister and family.
I am almost done with April’s blanket. Will take a pic later. Yes, there isn’t anything really going on.
I felt like crying the other day. I got a letter from Alice. I don’t know. I don’t know what to do. Write or not write. Ugh! Then the whole Adam thing got worse! The gull of this man!
He put out a GoFundMe for $500. People are donating! WTF?! WHY? He doesn’t deserve it. No one in the family has donated which speaks volumes. We are done with your shit Adam!
I started meditating and it’s helping. I always thought meditating would be hard for me because it’s hard to switch off my brain. But I started meditating after working out and that helped.
Now a funny pic of Tex for fun. I put a toy on his head. lol!
