Mother’s Day went good. I made these flowers for my Mom, sister, and sister-in-law.
Chrissy really loved these. She was like how long did it take you? WOW! I love these. I think she thanked me a million times, which surprised me. That day was a good day.
I am all the better from my rashes which whew I thought I would have to see a dermatologist. I am glad I do not have to. I am getting another implant in July. I am looking forward to it and I am looking forward to finishing my tattoo.
Made up with my sister so Mother’s Day is back on. It was good we could move
passed it like adults.
My legs! Sunday, I went back to Urgent Care. I got another round of pills. I
was debating on seeing a dermatologist because I figured skin, they know skin.
But now I think I will wait. I think my legs got extremely dry. They felt very
scaly. I got Aquaphor and wow this stuff has helped me so much! I really wished
I did this first before going back the 3rd time but at least now I can
get some relief. Also, I am able to sleep which is so important. I was not a
happy person because I couldn’t sleep because of my legs.
We went to Ulta Beauty on Tuesday because I had to go to the dentist to make a
plan for another implant. I wanted to get my mom a gift card for there. I have
only been in Ulta one time with my mom. I don’t know, I thought it was going
to be fun to look around. I was wrong! This place actually gave me anxiety and I
was having a wonderful day. First of all, the smells were all perfume mixed
together literally burning my eyes. I felt like I didn’t belong there. I
wanted to look at the makeup but just couldn’t. I felt so anxious there. So,
crazy! We just got the gift card and left. I never want to go back there again.
I only did it myself but going through carb withdrawals. lol! It sucks. Oh well, it will get better.
I just found out that my town is getting my favorite coffee shop, a Dunkin’ Donuts I am excited.
I am unsure what I should make my sister-in-law for Mother’s Day. Ugh, I hate it. So, I am making flowers for my mom and my sister. I don’t want to make flowers for my sister-in-law as I don’t like her. I usually give her the ugliest flowers. Lol! I did that last year. But I can’t just make flowers for my mom and my sister as we all celebrate together. Ugh, oh well again. It is what it is. I just don’t like the fact I have to waste my time making something for someone who I don’t want to. I am just going to do it anyways.
I feel better from Covid took forever. There are some side effects I have noticed from having Covid. One thing is some coffee that I liked before doesn’t taste great anymore. That sucks. Another thing is I think Covid damaged the nerve in my jaw. I gotta talk to my dentist when I see him later this year on seeing someone to take a look at it. I went for a cleaning and my teeth are doing great but OMG my jaw hurt so bad later that day and the next day and the next. It felt like I fell on my face hard. I couldn’t talk that much or eat because my jaw hurt so bad. It didn’t feel like any one tooth it felt like my whole jaw was in pain. When I first got Covid my mouth hurt really badly for a good week. Then it started to get better till I went to the dentist and had to hold up my mouth open. I really think it’s a nerve in my jaw. I feel better now but it could hurt in the future. So, gonna see what can be done about that.
I have been thinking lately and decided to make this week about Tex. I was thinking that Tex and I have a unique relationship. He is by far the most intelligent dog we have had. Also, the most emotional dog ever too.
He gives me Tex sandwiches which I totally love! Every morning he comes over and sits on top of me and I pet him. He gives me a thousand kisses too! I pet his head and neck which he loves. Never had a dog do that. I give him Tex sandwiches too. Which means I give him hugs. He loves HUGS! His tail is wagging so hard. It’s great.
He is the best. Don’t get me wrong I loved our other fur babies too. They all were unique in their own way.
I think because we have had Tex from a puppy. Got to see every stage till now. I am dreading the later stages. But that’s life it goes on.
I love the relationship I have with Tex. I mean look at him. So cute!
We decided that we will celebrate every other Thanksgiving with my family and then the other year with Jeff’s family. It’s only fair. Plus we both need a break from each other’s family. LOL!
Anyways, Jeff’s dad Ken has told us he could take off of work anytime. Also, he is working now because he is bored since his wife will not stop working. He went back to work at his old job. He can work from home or go to the office. He does both. So, Jeff asked if we can come and see them on the Wednesday before Thanksgiving a MONTH before Thanksgiving. Ken finally got back to us and said he and his wife have to work and can’t. SO, Jeff said we will be near them on Wednesday can we come and see him just for a little bit. No, we can’t because he will be at the office. I think it’s an excuse. We haven’t seen them since Father’s day. I think it’s BULLSHIT! I feel hurt and so does Jeff that they never want to see us anymore. They don’t even make suggestions to see us if something doesn’t work out. I am sick of this shit. We are family and should be able to see each other. I am beyond heated on this. I don’t understand ever since Ken got remarried it’s been hard to go and see them.
I think the reason I am so mad is that my parents are always like when can we see you. Come and see us. It’s the very opposite.
Oh well, I am trying not to be so mad about it even though it’s difficult. We will still have a good Thanksgiving anyways. We get to skip all the traffic and have fun at home. Gotta watch Trains, Planes, and Automobiles which we always watch at or around Thanksgiving.
A neat lady I have known all my life passed away on Tuesday, September 20, 2022. Her name was Aunt Sue.
She was my dad’s sister-in-law. She was such a great lady. She was out of a box kind of person and I loved that about her. When I was a kid, I used to go and hang out at her house. I used to watch John Wayne movies with Uncle Dan and talk with Aunt Sue. I loved seeing her for Thanksgiving. She was an amazing lady.
She started to fade for some years as she developed Alzheimer’s disease. Only some weeks was she put into a great facility her oldest daughter found for her as Uncle Dan no longer could care for her on his own. Then she got Covid. She decided she no longer wanted to be around. She stopped eating and drinking then she passed away. It was very sad!
I rather not think of her that way. I will always have fond memories of her. In October the family will do a celebration of life. I like those so much more than funerals.
I love you, Aunt Sue. You did live a great life and had a great family. You will always be the cool Aunt.
This is a week off. Yay! We took out our ancient air conditioner and still have to patch the hole inside the house. We did do the outside though. We want another mini-split for the rest of the house.
Our fur baby has been sick! We are not sure how he got it but he got an infection in his lung. I had to somehow collect his pee. That was really hard to do but I did it. They wanted to check for Blastomycosis which we hadn’t heard of before. It’s an infection that affects the lungs and then goes to the brain. Fatal. Was at first worried about that but he didn’t have any of the symptoms. I was worried because he was coughing what sounded like an Asthma cough. They did take a chest x-ray and found a little infection.
We did find out that he doesn’t have Blastomycosis which YAY! He is taking Doxycycline for his infection and has been getting better. Well, I should say a lot better. He has been his normal self again. He has been taking his meds for a little over a week. We are so happy our Tex is feeling better.
Sunday was Mother’s Day. I have to admit I wasn’t really looking forward to it even though I made an extra effort this year. Jeff and I went to Aldi’s and bought all the ladies’ tulips. They were five dollars can’t go wrong with that. Jeff also made chicken and brats for the main dish which was yum!
Kim came can you believe it?! She actually was nice on Sunday. That’s strange. Dad said she is trying to make up for what happened last year. Took her long enough for her to be nice to anyone really. Of course, they left early which was fine with the rest of us.
I stayed and slept over. I hung out with my parents all day on Monday. It was cool to do so. They can be silly. Mom and I went to discount stores all over Green Bay. That was fun. Then later Jeff came and we all went out to eat. They were glad that I wanted to hang out with them. My dad said it many times while I was there. That makes me happy.
March 17 was my birthday! I am 39! I had a great birthday. Monday I went to the dentist then went to see my parents. We went to a Mexican restaurant near their house because I wanted to eat a yummy taco salad. They gave me money and this really cute rug.
I got 40 pods of any coffee of my choosing from crazycups.com and that’s my birthday gift from Jeff! Best gift!
Then on Friday, we went to see Ken and Mileena. My birthday is the 17th, Mileena’s birthday is the 18th, and Ken’s birthday is the 19th. Birthday extravaganza! I got an Amazon gift card which is as good as actual money!
Chrissy bought me this cool bracelet!
I had a great birthday week!
This is going to be a long one. I will start with the now and then head backward. Then go back to what I wasn’t ready to share but now ready to share. I feel good about our decision. But let’s go back to last week. On Monday 12-20-2021. We took the parents to see the Santa Rockin’ Lights. I was disappointed. It was shorter than the other years. We took a video in 2019 and confirmed that this year was fewer lights. Sad! However, it isn’t just about the lights. It’s the time I get to spend with my parents just us. We like that.
Then on Wednesday I was trying to move this heavy box and did something really stupid. I didn’t lift with my knees and hurt my back really badly. To the point, I couldn’t hardly move. I have hurt my back in the past but this was the worst I have ever done. So that meant I had to skip Christmas. Which really sucked. My parents came by the day before and celebrated a little with us and brought some presents. They brought our presents to give to everyone else. I was sad because I do like Christmas and giving presents. What made me sad was that no one called me. The only person to say thank you was Corey. Positive it was nice to not go to Christmas as well. It was bad outside and to drive an hour away would have been a pain. Plus I got to chill with Jeff. That is always the best.
This year went pretty fast, I have to say. I made a lot of things this year. That’s always fun. Let’s see I made a bunch of diamond paintings, made some Yodas with my looms, and did some cross-stitching. That’s a lot.
I fell off my diet and gained all my weight back and then some. Yes, I did. I ate whatever I wanted and only exercised sometimes. Jan 1st is Keto all the way. I never ever want to be this fat again. Even though it will be really tough it will be worth it.
Jeff and I are saying goodbye to adoption. Oh, I really wanted to have a child or children by the time I turned 40. Life has different plans for different people. As for Jeff and me, we decided to be kidless. We are happy being fur baby parents. It was a long and hard decision to make. We didn’t fully understand what it was like to have strangers poke in our lives and I mean they want to know EVERYTHING. We aren’t like that. We like to be private people not like we don’t have social media but not like that. That was CRAZY!
On top of that, they say that you are not buying a baby when you really are. They sell you on that. In total, we probably spent 3 thousand however if we were to get a baby and the legal fees all of that would have been around 20 grand. Who has that just around? Yes, you get some of that back from the government but that’s only if the child has been with you for some months. It’s so crazy to have that kind of cash on hand to adopt a child. We picked one of the lessor adoption agencies because cash was a real factor in what we could afford. Also felt like they weren’t in it for the money. However, if you got loads of money you can have a child in a year or two. That is how it goes. But of course, you are NOT buying a baby. Sure……
After coming to the conclusion that I don’t want or need to have kids to be happy. WOW, my whole mental health changed to be more positive. I was always a bit sad around Christmas because I thought of what it would be like when we would have a kid. But now I don’t feel that way. I don’t hate kids or anything like that. I see Jeff and me how we are now and it’s great. We have free time. I sleep in on Sundays. I don’t know if we save money. lol! But it’s pretty great plus we have Tex. Maybe another dog in the future not sure. But I see all the positives not of having children.
The hardest part was telling my parents that we are going kidless. We were surprised by their reaction they were cool with it. WHAT!!!??!! That isn’t my mom at all. But yeah she was cool with it. Wow!
This year like any year had ups and downs. I learned a lot this year more about myself. I know I grew more mentally and emotionally. (And physically but the wrong way. LOL!)
I’m looking forward to whatever 2022 will bring.
Goodbye, 2021!