Before freaking out. I first want to write down my visit to the doctor. I have been sick and I am still sick. I decided to go to the walk in care at the hospital. I always say it’s a gamble on what kind of doctor I will see when going to the Emergency Room and the Walk in Clinic. I always hope for the best but that doesn’t always work.

This time I got Dr. Fruit loops. That is what I called him. When he walked in he almost fell down like he was drunk. He asked me some really dumb questions and gave me funny looks when I told him the answers. I plainly told him I have a sinus infection. I get them I know how they feel and this is one of those times. But he proceeded to think he knew better then me. He said maybe I have the flu but I know better. I told him no sinus infection. When listening to my heart he told me I had a heart murmur. Okay Dr. Fruit loops whatever. I am thirty three years old I am sure out of all the times I have been to the doctor someone would have told me that. He said it was faint. I don’t believe him.

I am allergic to a lot of medication so he was literally looking up what to give me. I didn’t want to wait anymore so I told him what they give me usually. Then he proceeded to look it up still then gave to me what I said five minutes later. I am totally fine with doctors who are straight forward and want to leave just as much as me but this guy wanted to tell lame jokes to try to make me laugh. I have a cough like I want to laugh. I was happy to leave.

Now freaking out. I am freaking out! My best friend April might have something wrong with her brain! Last week she told me she had something wrong with her eye. It was blurry and it hurt. She saw one eye doctor and told her they couldn’t see behind it and gave her some drops. Then she went to a different eye doctor and had an MRI for the eye. I didn’t know they could just do the eye. Anyways that doctor told her she may have a brain tumor or brain pressure. Scary!

On Wednesday she went in for two MRI’s for her brain. Waiting for the results yet. I am scared and sad. I am hoping that it’s just her eye that is having trouble and not the brain like nerve something. It doesn’t help when she is saying she is dying. I told her she can’t say that until the doctor says she is dying. I am nervous and I pray she will be okay.

I really don’t want to go through another friend’s funeral. Especially not hers. We are supposed to be old women together.