I have been thinking that maybe others think of me as icy. I don’t know why I have been thinking about it, lately. I guess that isn’t true. A couple of weeks ago I had a conversation with my neighbor. She was telling me she accidentally ran into a tree. You know clumsy but like on her way to her mailbox. Not in a vehicle or anything. Anyways she knocked down some eggs from the tree. An egg fell out of the nest means certain death for those baby birds. She said she felt horrible. Which just a week before I saw some eggs that have fallen out of the tree near where I was mowing. I didn’t mow them over by the way. I am not cruel but I felt bad for the little birdies. I told her that it’s sad that happens but you can’t put the eggs back in the nest. They still will be rejected by the mom. I said it so matter of factly too. She just gave me like yeah in response. Made me think of maybe I should have more sympathy.

In July we are going to one of Jeff’s co-worker friend’s cabin. I was thinking about the social thing I am going to. I am not in any way social at all. As you know I like to put up my walls and stay safely in my castle. I think that people think I am cold or maybe really shy. I also have gotten really, really good at my poker face when it comes to certain topics of conversations. Even though in my mind I have many opinions about whatever people are talking to me about. Years of practicing the poker face have gotten me to this point.

I also think should I care if people think of me as icy? The right answer is no but I am only human and do think about this from time to time. I would like to think that people see that I am a warm person and not a cold person.