The last couple of days I have been feeling a bit depressed and I haven’t felt this way in a long time. Ever since I changed my way of thinking I have kept depression away but I do have it. I have had depression since I was a teen because I was bullied really badly in school so I tend to think less of myself. I use to take medication for it but I decided to not take anything and to change my attitude, my way of thinking and my lifestyle to not make depression part of me. But for last few days it has been hanging around.

I have been feeling like others in my if are moving on and I am standing still. I’m not sure how to fix that. My BFF April is learning how to ride horses and one day she will have one. My friend Helen is learning how to play electric guitar and is getting good at it. Jeff started his own business and has a client he is working for. And me I have done nothing. I haven’t really learned any new skills that sounds great like them. I learned how to loom knit, who cares.

To add to my mental misery our Ford Escape died. We can no longer drive it or fix it. On top of that we paid some money towards that vehicle. We got the license renewed, had the oil changed and it was all for nothing. Now that we don’t have that vehicle I can’t go to this wedding I was looking forward too. We do have our truck however can’t really drive it in the winter. I have no idea how we are going to get another vehicle.

Ugh…I give up on this week.