Life

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This Sunday is Mother’s day. I got mom some good presents. I bought some stuff on Wish. I thought for sure it wouldn’t come because it was supposed to get here on the 3rd and it came on the 7th of this week. If you can’t tell it’s a theme. Lol!

The little item on top of the candle is strawberry earrings. The big strawberry is actually a purse. Those are the items I got from Wish. The bag is cuter in person then on the website.

I am trying really hard to let this go. But my mom got her hair done…..

The grief she doled out last year for dying my hair was unbelievable. Then yet she does this! (Taking deep breaths.) However I think this looks great. I am going to let it go just hard right now. But I will get over it.

Like I mentioned this Sunday is Mother’s Day. Every year I send out invites on messenger. We always do a pot luck. I usually get on people’s cases to contribute whatever. Not this year. I said what we are bringing and no one else said anything else. So maybe we will just have hamburgers for Mother’s Day. They are adults, they can read. I don’t feel the need to be concerned with everyone else anymore.

I got my new diamond painting. I will be doing for my mom’s birthday in September.

On Thursday May 5 I saw the cutest little fox in our yard! He ran fast and I couldn’t get his front. But I did get a pic of him.

Here is a cute pic of Tex sitting like he does always. Lol!

Hair

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I did it! I cut off all of my hair.

Hair before:

I first put my hair in a ponytail and cut it off. It was fun! Then I cut all the long pieces as much as I could. Then Jeff buzzed my hair. I haven’t had this short first of all ever. But short hair in general 2015! It feels so nice.

First time in like forever I am not going to dye my hair. What you see is what it’s going to be. I feel liberated not to have to dye my hair because I feel a certain why about having white hair along with my black original hair color. It feels like to just be me and be happy with that.

Life

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Last week Jeff fell down at work. His own fault but still falling down as an adult really sucks. His leg somehow got wrapped up in his headphone cord and it tripped him. He fell on his knee and DAMN! The bruises he has is crazy! I also think he pulled some muscles too. Thankfully his work lets him work from home. He worked most of last week and some of this week from home to heal.

My mom came over on Monday. She really is into diamond painting now and knows I have been doing it now for a couple of years. She came over and we diamond painted. She is doing people with umbrellas and I am doing another very colorful owl.

I got this a week ago. After mom left I had this much done.

Friday I finished it!

Life

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Last weekend was Easter. I went to my sister’s house she got her shot. My parents have their shot too. It was also my niece’s bday and she was milking it for sure. It was a good time to sit and chat with everyone. However my older brother wasn’t there because he couldn’t come over because he didn’t get the shot. Chrissy is still pretty mad at him and I am too a bit. It’s hard to forgive someone who doesn’t care about their family. But I am working on it.

I got now some more CBD oil this time. Wow those gummies tasted so very awful! But they worked good though. I like that I am continuing my journey to help myself with anxiety.

On Thursday I got my last Covid shot. I got instant arm pain but I felt fine. Till the nighttime. My throat felt strange and it’s hard to explain. It’s not scratchy but more like it feels like I guess I would say a lump in my throat is the best way to say. It feels so strange. My head feels terrible like when I get the flu. My arm hurt so, so bad! I can’t touch my arm or lay on my arm it hurts that bad.

I hope it only lasts this weekend and then I will be fine.

Life

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I bought my first CBD product. Since last year I don’t know why but my anxiety has been a lot worse than it has been in years. I always have anxiety but thought it wasn’t as bad as I like to admit. It’s bad. We have a place here to buy it and I was surprised. I went last Saturday and got some gummies. I wasn’t sure how it would make me feel and I have to say they worked! I was not anxious going to the dentist this week. However I think next time I will get oil. The gummies taste like medicine trying to be cover up with gummies.

I finished that diamond painting owl finally. This one was tough.

Happy Birthday

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Wednesday was my 38th birthday! Wow, 38 years I have been on this earth. It’s crazy to say in two years I will be 40. I have learned a lot in my 38 years.

The biggest thing I have learned and even more so because of Covid. Is what kind of people my siblings are. Good and bad. I have a closer bond with my sister and my younger brother. As my older brother is now a lot more strained and I don’t forsee me getting closer to him anytime soon.

I have to say I am more open-minded than I used to be. I see on Facebook how people become too divided. Also hehehe Facebook. I say the reason why I still use Facebook is because one yes I do play some of it’s games. But also a lot of my older family members use it and keeps me connected to them. Anyways back to the point is I don’t understand the divide. If one person wants to live their life in their own way, how can that be bad? It doesn’t affect me in anyway. On top of that why say this or that negatively towards one another? The whole vaccination thing has a lot of people on this side or that side. I say, whatever you feel is right for you, you should do that. It shouldn’t matter really what others think but that’s Facebook and the internet as a whole. For me I am going to do whatever I think is right for me.

On my birthday I went to the dentist and was actually excited to go. Please write that down on the calendar. Danielle wanted to go to the dentist. Yes! I got my partial dentures. Now I can eat properly and not be embarrassed when I smile. No one has ever pointed out when I smile I am missing teeth it’s more how I feel about it.

I got The Dark Pictures Man from Medan and Little Hope. I love those games where I can choose my own path. The Man from Medan I bought from the money my parents gave me and Little Hope is what Jeff got me.

On Saturday Jeff is going to make ribs for dinner. I love ribs! Then I get to choose the movie we watch. I picked The Colony it’s one of my favorite underrated movies and Jeff has never seen it.

Vaccine

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I feel so lucky! On Thursday Jeff told me he put me on a list to get a call to get the vaccine. It was leftover doses from the day. Anybody spouses at his work who wanted one. That’s me! I have been wanting to get one so badly! I was so jealous that Jeff got vaccinated because I really want to be vaccinated too.

I thought to myself there is no way they going to call because it was only for this week and only Thursday and Friday. They said they usually have 0-11 doses left over. Also, they said in this email Jeff sent me that I would have to be there in 20 minutes or less which is doable for me. Just didn’t think I would get a call. I called my county because they also opened up for appointments. I called them on Sunday and left a message. Never got a call back all week.

I was all ready to go by the end of the day since the email said between 5 or 6 pm may get a call. At 5:30 I got the call! I was so excited! I am so happy that Jeff put me on the list. I went there and I got Moderna which Jeff has too. He got his second shot on Friday. So far so good. He said he doesn’t feel any different. We will see how he feels this weekend. After my first shot, I felt fine. They made me wait 30 minutes afterward because I am allergic to Penicillin. I saw others that only had to wait 15 minutes afterward. I felt fine though and my arm didn’t hurt. Also, side note I got my period on Thursday and well it kinds sucks getting the shot on the same day but also happy to get my shot. I was listening to the workers talking while I was waiting because I was the last one for the day. I literally got the last shot left over for the day! I heard they called maybe like 4 other people before me and they either couldn’t make it in 20 minutes or refused. That’s why I feel so lucky I got it on Thursday.

Later that night I got a huge headache and felt so fatigued. Then on Friday morning my arm hurt really badly. It reminded me of how bad when I get the flu shot in my arm. The only difference with the flu shot I usually get a lump but with this, I didn’t get that. Throughout the day on Friday, I felt fatigued then feel better so on and on all day.

I am a happy girl though. It’s worth feeling like poop to get the vaccine. That means I can go see my family, well the ones that are vaccinated. I wouldn’t put others at risk because I am vaccinated. I can still give it to someone else who isn’t vaccinated. Also, the worry of getting Covid is less. Of course, still, wear my mask and wash my hand more often will still be a practice for me.

Life

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My hair really needed to be dyed! I gave myself a little hair cut too before dying it.

I did black and purple together for the top and middle. Then just purple on the ends. The results:

I LOVE IT! Jeff dyed my hair for me. He has gotten so good at it!

It’s the best hair dye! Iroiro has made my hair so soft. Also looks at the waves and curls. They are back! It feels like my hair. Before it felt dry and it was so straight. I have been trying to get it back to this. I finally succeeded. I used coconut oil conditioner and Sulfate free, argan oil shampoo.

This is the last dye I will do on my long hair. After this fades, goodbye hair. It’s really thick again and it will be nice to have no hair for summer.

Life

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Got my dye! I decided to go with this brand. I wonder what the fade will be? I hope all my hair dyes this time too. I am doing black and purple mixed on top and in the middle of my hair. Then purple about 2 or 3 inches on the bottom. I interested in how it will look. I guess I will know this weekend.

Jeff bought Tex a new toy. He is so cute with it. It’s his ring and he LOVES to show it off. When Jeff comes home from work, he brings it to him to show off his toy. He is just too silly.

Also, Tex is so smart! He learned a new word “nice” in a week. Literally been teaching him since Monday. So crazy! Nice means keep your legs to yourself. We now let him be on the bed during the day. Also, when Jeff goes to bed Tex can now sleep with him. He used to think the bed was for play. Unfortunately, when I lay down he still thinks that way. So when I go to bed he has to sleep on his dog bed in the living room or his dog bed in the office. Pampered, right?! LOL!

Anyways on the bed, I like to pet him and give him belly rubs during the day. He kicks hard and he kicked me in the shoulder leaving a big bruise. He doesn’t mean to, he tries to move his arm under the hand. But he does that too aggressively. So I taught him “nice”, and on Wednesday he got to not kick and keep his legs to himself. How smart is that?! Now Jeff can say “nice” when we watch tv and he is petting him. He still does I will put my paw on your but he does not gently. He understands not to do that. I am proud of Tex!

Life

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Life without Scotty is hard. Almost started crying again because we got to take him home. It’s nice to have him back and brings me closure. He came in a tin. Jeff is going to make him a nice box this summer. Then we are going to make a shelf with Scotty and Koko together. They get to be together again, best buds.

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about myself. Last year was hard. It was hard on my mental health. I have been doing a lot of reading and watching YouTube videos on hair. Yep hair again. I know right?! What I did last year. Bleach, dye purple and dye red.

I refuse to use Artic Fox again. So I decided to go with IroIro. I got black and purple. Not sure what combination I am going to do. My hair right now is bleach blonde, red, and purple right now but really faded.

What does that have to do with what I have been thinking about? I have been thinking about how much my mom hated me changing my hair. Every time I would see her she would say get a haircut. Why can’t I just be me? I have been having fun changing my hair. But then I have been thinking about my hair and me. I always thought in the past and now that my hair is my identity. When I was younger my hair was a lot longer. I use to use it as a kind of a shield. Since back then and even now I am shy and an introvert. I have spent probably more than half my life looking after it. Well, I have had probably every hairstyle that was popular till I was an adult. I have to tell you long hair is work.

I spend a lot of time on it and researching it. But why? Why do I care what others think of my own hair even my mom? It’s hard to take criticism from her in the past. After bleaching my hair and changing its color. I come to realize I really, really don’t care about her opinion when it comes to me. How I want to look. That’s saying something. I always cared what my mom thought of me. It used to take a toll on me too.

So I am debating on doing something really out of the box for me. This summer I am thinking of cutting off all my hair. That’s right, I am thinking of buzzing off all of my hair. My hair is damaged already. It started to grow out. But I have been thinking of how nice it would be to not have to worry about my hair. I won’t have to comb it which is a pain because of my wavy curly hair. I have to put products in it to make it healthy. I have to wear a shower cap to shower. It takes hours to dry and I have never been one to really style my hair.

I at one point in my life had really short hair and I like it. Then I grew it back out. I may grow it back or I may keep it short. I may even bleach it and try different colors too. What’s the difference it would be a buzz cut. I asked Jeff what he thought. He told me “Do what you want.” Which is great that he truly lets me be me.

Changing my hair since it’s a big part of me helps with not only my self confidence it’s helps my mental health. I have been feeling pretty sad since Scotty passed. It’s been hard to adjust to having Tex being the only one. Even though he has been such a silly dog. He is showing more of his personality. It has been a big life change. It will continue to happen again and again. I hope the next big life change will be a happier one.

Also, I want to add I can tell in 2021 will change me. I have been growing up more in my mental stage. Things that were so important seem not to be anymore. The way I see things are different too. It’s good to grow up. I sometimes think of my past self and think what the hell? It makes me laugh. Even though 2021 here, in the beginning, has been shit. I can only think of what else will 2021 bring. Definitely change. I think in a good way.