Brotherly Love

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Let me tell you about Mother’s Day. Everything seemed happy. My siblings showed up with food. Sometimes I am unsure if they will. It was a nice sunny day last Sunday. We all sat outside. Jeff and I got burned. Our first sunburn of the year. Jeff got really burned. That really sucks!

Mom asked Kim if she was going to get the vaccine. She replied, “don’t worry about it”. Mom dropped it and she and I went inside so I could see the diamond painting she was working on.

Kim comes storming in yelling at her son that they are leaving right now! Mom and I looked at each other like what is going on? Mom asked what is going on? Corey starts yelling at mom. “It’s nobody’s business if we get vaccinated or not!” Even though yes it is. Maybe some people don’t want to be around those who haven’t got vaccinated yet. Whether to say it’s bad or not is up to each person.

It was a huge fight!

After they left in a huff. Mom and I went back outside and that’s when we got the whole story. Chrissy told Kim it’s Corey’s fault she got Covid. Look at the timeline all of us getting it around Corey. Kim said, “You don’t know that, it was him”. Like really?! Yes, it is! There is no way 5 people got Covid all at once. Also, Corey texted us all that he had Covid. If he didn’t think he gave it to anyone he wouldn’t have done that. Welcome to reality, Corey. I guess they were saying what the news says about Covid. It’s called doing your own research and also the news? Know I have an answer to my question on who really believes the news.

This brought to my attention my relationship with Corey. It’s not good that’s for sure. He has no remorse for what he did. He could have killed my parents. Mom and Chrissy got Covid and it was really bad for them. How could he do this and not feel bad? Even if he would have said I am not getting the shot and I don’t want to talk about it. That’s it. Fine we all would have been fine. But not to apologize to giving it to everyone, in my opinion unforgivable.

Like I have stated before I don’t understand why the family pities Corey. I don’t. He’s an adult and can make decisions on his own. I have struggled for a couple of days. Reflecting on how I feel about Corey. I decided I loved and respected the Corey when we were younger. We used to hang out. We used to be able to talk to each other. After years of me reaching out and trying to get together with him. Him not trying not even a tiny bit to at least be brotherly to me. Ignoring calls, texts, and even trying to hang out. I am done.

I have come to the conclusion I don’t love Corey. I can’t love someone I don’t have any kind of respect for. It’s different for me not to like something one of my family does. Maybe get mad here and there. This is a different feeling altogether. It’s not wrong to not love or even like your siblings. I think that is what I struggled with the most is he is my brother. Really that doesn’t mean anything.

Since he has chosen years ago he doesn’t care about our relationship then why should I try to mend something that isn’t even there anymore? It’s sad that it took Covid to bring that to light but the only thing that came from that fight is that hard feeling, I had but don’t have anymore. Since I don’t love my brother anymore. I feel actually free now. I don’t have to like him or his wife. Which really I haven’t ever really liked her anyway. I still will be civil but I can’t say I love you back. I am not going to say something just to say it because everyone else does.

Life

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This Sunday is Mother’s day. I got mom some good presents. I bought some stuff on Wish. I thought for sure it wouldn’t come because it was supposed to get here on the 3rd and it came on the 7th of this week. If you can’t tell it’s a theme. Lol!

The little item on top of the candle is strawberry earrings. The big strawberry is actually a purse. Those are the items I got from Wish. The bag is cuter in person then on the website.

I am trying really hard to let this go. But my mom got her hair done…..

The grief she doled out last year for dying my hair was unbelievable. Then yet she does this! (Taking deep breaths.) However I think this looks great. I am going to let it go just hard right now. But I will get over it.

Like I mentioned this Sunday is Mother’s Day. Every year I send out invites on messenger. We always do a pot luck. I usually get on people’s cases to contribute whatever. Not this year. I said what we are bringing and no one else said anything else. So maybe we will just have hamburgers for Mother’s Day. They are adults, they can read. I don’t feel the need to be concerned with everyone else anymore.

I got my new diamond painting. I will be doing for my mom’s birthday in September.

On Thursday May 5 I saw the cutest little fox in our yard! He ran fast and I couldn’t get his front. But I did get a pic of him.

Here is a cute pic of Tex sitting like he does always. Lol!

Hair

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I did it! I cut off all of my hair.

Hair before:

I first put my hair in a ponytail and cut it off. It was fun! Then I cut all the long pieces as much as I could. Then Jeff buzzed my hair. I haven’t had this short first of all ever. But short hair in general 2015! It feels so nice.

First time in like forever I am not going to dye my hair. What you see is what it’s going to be. I feel liberated not to have to dye my hair because I feel a certain why about having white hair along with my black original hair color. It feels like to just be me and be happy with that.

Life

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Last week Jeff fell down at work. His own fault but still falling down as an adult really sucks. His leg somehow got wrapped up in his headphone cord and it tripped him. He fell on his knee and DAMN! The bruises he has is crazy! I also think he pulled some muscles too. Thankfully his work lets him work from home. He worked most of last week and some of this week from home to heal.

My mom came over on Monday. She really is into diamond painting now and knows I have been doing it now for a couple of years. She came over and we diamond painted. She is doing people with umbrellas and I am doing another very colorful owl.

I got this a week ago. After mom left I had this much done.

Friday I finished it!

Life

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Last weekend was Easter. I went to my sister’s house she got her shot. My parents have their shot too. It was also my niece’s bday and she was milking it for sure. It was a good time to sit and chat with everyone. However my older brother wasn’t there because he couldn’t come over because he didn’t get the shot. Chrissy is still pretty mad at him and I am too a bit. It’s hard to forgive someone who doesn’t care about their family. But I am working on it.

I got now some more CBD oil this time. Wow those gummies tasted so very awful! But they worked good though. I like that I am continuing my journey to help myself with anxiety.

On Thursday I got my last Covid shot. I got instant arm pain but I felt fine. Till the nighttime. My throat felt strange and it’s hard to explain. It’s not scratchy but more like it feels like I guess I would say a lump in my throat is the best way to say. It feels so strange. My head feels terrible like when I get the flu. My arm hurt so, so bad! I can’t touch my arm or lay on my arm it hurts that bad.

I hope it only lasts this weekend and then I will be fine.

Life

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I bought my first CBD product. Since last year I don’t know why but my anxiety has been a lot worse than it has been in years. I always have anxiety but thought it wasn’t as bad as I like to admit. It’s bad. We have a place here to buy it and I was surprised. I went last Saturday and got some gummies. I wasn’t sure how it would make me feel and I have to say they worked! I was not anxious going to the dentist this week. However I think next time I will get oil. The gummies taste like medicine trying to be cover up with gummies.

I finished that diamond painting owl finally. This one was tough.

Happy Birthday

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Wednesday was my 38th birthday! Wow, 38 years I have been on this earth. It’s crazy to say in two years I will be 40. I have learned a lot in my 38 years.

The biggest thing I have learned and even more so because of Covid. Is what kind of people my siblings are. Good and bad. I have a closer bond with my sister and my younger brother. As my older brother is now a lot more strained and I don’t forsee me getting closer to him anytime soon.

I have to say I am more open-minded than I used to be. I see on Facebook how people become too divided. Also hehehe Facebook. I say the reason why I still use Facebook is because one yes I do play some of it’s games. But also a lot of my older family members use it and keeps me connected to them. Anyways back to the point is I don’t understand the divide. If one person wants to live their life in their own way, how can that be bad? It doesn’t affect me in anyway. On top of that why say this or that negatively towards one another? The whole vaccination thing has a lot of people on this side or that side. I say, whatever you feel is right for you, you should do that. It shouldn’t matter really what others think but that’s Facebook and the internet as a whole. For me I am going to do whatever I think is right for me.

On my birthday I went to the dentist and was actually excited to go. Please write that down on the calendar. Danielle wanted to go to the dentist. Yes! I got my partial dentures. Now I can eat properly and not be embarrassed when I smile. No one has ever pointed out when I smile I am missing teeth it’s more how I feel about it.

I got The Dark Pictures Man from Medan and Little Hope. I love those games where I can choose my own path. The Man from Medan I bought from the money my parents gave me and Little Hope is what Jeff got me.

On Saturday Jeff is going to make ribs for dinner. I love ribs! Then I get to choose the movie we watch. I picked The Colony it’s one of my favorite underrated movies and Jeff has never seen it.

Vaccine

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I feel so lucky! On Thursday Jeff told me he put me on a list to get a call to get the vaccine. It was leftover doses from the day. Anybody spouses at his work who wanted one. That’s me! I have been wanting to get one so badly! I was so jealous that Jeff got vaccinated because I really want to be vaccinated too.

I thought to myself there is no way they going to call because it was only for this week and only Thursday and Friday. They said they usually have 0-11 doses left over. Also, they said in this email Jeff sent me that I would have to be there in 20 minutes or less which is doable for me. Just didn’t think I would get a call. I called my county because they also opened up for appointments. I called them on Sunday and left a message. Never got a call back all week.

I was all ready to go by the end of the day since the email said between 5 or 6 pm may get a call. At 5:30 I got the call! I was so excited! I am so happy that Jeff put me on the list. I went there and I got Moderna which Jeff has too. He got his second shot on Friday. So far so good. He said he doesn’t feel any different. We will see how he feels this weekend. After my first shot, I felt fine. They made me wait 30 minutes afterward because I am allergic to Penicillin. I saw others that only had to wait 15 minutes afterward. I felt fine though and my arm didn’t hurt. Also, side note I got my period on Thursday and well it kinds sucks getting the shot on the same day but also happy to get my shot. I was listening to the workers talking while I was waiting because I was the last one for the day. I literally got the last shot left over for the day! I heard they called maybe like 4 other people before me and they either couldn’t make it in 20 minutes or refused. That’s why I feel so lucky I got it on Thursday.

Later that night I got a huge headache and felt so fatigued. Then on Friday morning my arm hurt really badly. It reminded me of how bad when I get the flu shot in my arm. The only difference with the flu shot I usually get a lump but with this, I didn’t get that. Throughout the day on Friday, I felt fatigued then feel better so on and on all day.

I am a happy girl though. It’s worth feeling like poop to get the vaccine. That means I can go see my family, well the ones that are vaccinated. I wouldn’t put others at risk because I am vaccinated. I can still give it to someone else who isn’t vaccinated. Also, the worry of getting Covid is less. Of course, still, wear my mask and wash my hand more often will still be a practice for me.

Life

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My hair really needed to be dyed! I gave myself a little hair cut too before dying it.

I did black and purple together for the top and middle. Then just purple on the ends. The results:

I LOVE IT! Jeff dyed my hair for me. He has gotten so good at it!

It’s the best hair dye! Iroiro has made my hair so soft. Also looks at the waves and curls. They are back! It feels like my hair. Before it felt dry and it was so straight. I have been trying to get it back to this. I finally succeeded. I used coconut oil conditioner and Sulfate free, argan oil shampoo.

This is the last dye I will do on my long hair. After this fades, goodbye hair. It’s really thick again and it will be nice to have no hair for summer.

Life

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Got my dye! I decided to go with this brand. I wonder what the fade will be? I hope all my hair dyes this time too. I am doing black and purple mixed on top and in the middle of my hair. Then purple about 2 or 3 inches on the bottom. I interested in how it will look. I guess I will know this weekend.

Jeff bought Tex a new toy. He is so cute with it. It’s his ring and he LOVES to show it off. When Jeff comes home from work, he brings it to him to show off his toy. He is just too silly.

Also, Tex is so smart! He learned a new word “nice” in a week. Literally been teaching him since Monday. So crazy! Nice means keep your legs to yourself. We now let him be on the bed during the day. Also, when Jeff goes to bed Tex can now sleep with him. He used to think the bed was for play. Unfortunately, when I lay down he still thinks that way. So when I go to bed he has to sleep on his dog bed in the living room or his dog bed in the office. Pampered, right?! LOL!

Anyways on the bed, I like to pet him and give him belly rubs during the day. He kicks hard and he kicked me in the shoulder leaving a big bruise. He doesn’t mean to, he tries to move his arm under the hand. But he does that too aggressively. So I taught him “nice”, and on Wednesday he got to not kick and keep his legs to himself. How smart is that?! Now Jeff can say “nice” when we watch tv and he is petting him. He still does I will put my paw on your but he does not gently. He understands not to do that. I am proud of Tex!