On Tuesday November 28 I was tasked to take my mom to another appointment. Which is fine you know the thing I hate is all that driving I have to do. Also I live 45 minutes away to pick up mom then drive almost an hour to her appointment. That the part that I hate also I dislike driving in general so it’s a lot of driving.

Anyway I drove there and picked up mom then headed to Appleton early. Mom was not a happy person because insurance was being dumb. They called her and said that they will not take her insurance for the scooter that she has been using. I hate insurance we all need it but they love to give you the run around AND make your life just a little bit more hell. So we headed out early to return the scooter however after mom called she was like “Screw it, I am keeping it.” Ha! She can be funny. We did eventually go to another store in Appleton but told her flat out there is a very high chance that she won’t be getting a scooter from them. At least she was honest about it.

Mom and I had two coffees! I had a major caffeine crash later because of it. My own fault. First we went to Copper Rock and oh it was yummy! Mom and I ate there too. We both had a bowl of chili and coffee. I haven’t been to a Copper Rock in forever.

I love that they can do this!

Mom wanted to get something for my friend Helen so while we were out we went to Starbucks. Oh my friend is going to like what my mom picked out! That is where we had our second cup of coffee. It sucked! I have been told that I am strange that I don’t like Starbucks and that is the reason why. Copper Rock the coffee was great! Starbucks made me feel like they just added some hot water to our mochas. And it cost more there too. I will go to Starbucks if I don’t have an option for coffee however I would take anywhere else than Starbucks to drink fancy coffee.

We went to a lot of places on Tuesday it practically took all day but I did have fun! Except I had to drive home in the dark which I think that is the worst. I even turned down dinner. ME! Turned down free dinner to go home. That is crazy of me!

Monday November 13 I had to take my mom all over the place for appointments. It was an experience that is for sure. First of all I slept over the night before because her first appointment was at 9 a.m. On Sunday Jeff drove me over there and we decided to have dinner with them. We didn’t tell my parents we got a new car which I didn’t think was a big deal. However that was a big deal. All night they asked why I didn’t tell them we got a new car. My mom said you get a new car you say. It’s like we got a new family member or something the way they were acting. I don’t feel I need to share everything with my parents. I only say that because I use to all the time but my parents have been so passive towards me so much this year that I decided to revert and not share everything. I didn’t know I was going to get the third degree from them about a car.

Also on Sunday we all went to a Mexican restaurant. I have to say I didn’t like our waitress. I feel there is a time to be sarcastic and a time to not be sarcastic and she was so sarcastic! It was to the point of being rude. Dad and I both got this huge burrito. I couldn’t finish all of it and my dad gave me the strangest look. Now normally yes I could eat all of that but I can’t anymore since I have lost weight, I just don’t eat as much as I use too. I was thinking he could have taken the rest of mine and eaten it later. It wouldn’t have been a big deal.

Monday we had to get up early at 7 a.m. to make sure we get to the appointment on time since it was about an hour away from my parents home. We had to leave the latest 8:15 a.m. but that also meant getting my mom in the car. Since my mom had surgery on her right foot, in a boot and a scooter would take some time to get in the car. So at 8:13 I am telling her we NEED to go and she is like “We have two minutes.” Then I told her yeah but you have to get in the car. Didn’t leave to almost 8:30.

On the way over there she is like speed, speed to get there. Now if we  were on time I wouldn’t haven’t had to haul ass over to her appointment. I only sped a little to get there because I was thinking of if we get pulled over no way we were going to make that appointment. Get this, this appointment was only 20 minutes! Like what?! So after that we went to breakfast then did some shopping. At 1 she had another appointment near the first place so we couldn’t go back home.

The second appointment was longer. It was an eye appointment. It was sort of cool because this place was in a hospital. So they have a little food court area. While my mom was in the doctor’s office I was looking outside. In the waiting area there are these huge windows. Anyone waiting can look outside which is the parking lot. I am just staring out the window watching people park and go  into the building.  There was this one woman in a white van parking in a handicap spot. She backed up so far that she bend the handicap sign. I was laughing! OMG! Those signs are in concrete as well, it had to do some damage to her van. Then she gets out trying to bend it back. I couldn’t help it, it was so funny!

What’s not funny is this guy who walks in a little after that. There is no one sitting in the waiting area but me. So where does this guy sit? Right next to me. Ugh I hate that. I brought a book to read so I just ignored him. This guy was rude. He takes out his cellphone and makes a call however he puts the other person on speaker phone. I hate when people do that. No one wants to hear your conversation. On top of that when the nurse calls for him he makes her wait so he can keep talking to this person. Rude!

After that appointment I bought my mom a coffee and we split something to eat in the food court area of the hospital. It was actually pretty good. After that we went home.

I feel sad and mad at the same time. In December I am putting together the making of popcorn balls. I love making popcorn balls with my dad. We don’t get to do it every year because a lot of the other family do not want do it. So this year I took charge and set a date. I also am making sure how it’s going to go, to the time to the food, everything to make sure it happens this year. I would even just make popcorn balls with my dad and no one else. However good news my siblings and their families are coming along with one of my aunts. I have it all figured out doing this event. I think it will be fun.

What I am sad and bad about is my mother-in-law and father-in-law. Way back when I used to get along with my mother-in-law. Everyone would say how lucky I was to have a great relationship with her, then she died.  Then my father-in-law got remarried which is fine. But I miss my mother-in-law very much especially around the holidays. Of course Jeff misses his mom too, all the time. However the holidays was awesome with her and I didn’t realize how cool it was till she passed.

We invited the in-laws to the popcorn balls event. The event doesn’t take place till December 16. That is a long ways away. We got an email yesterday stating they wouldn’t be able to attend. The email sounded so formal as well as we weren’t even family. Every time we invited them to something they cancel. They have never come to event ever.

Jeff asked the other day if we should invited them over for a Packer game. My simple response was no. My elaborate reasoning was if they want to come over they know our number. I don’t ever want to invited them to anything ever again. They always have some sort of lame excuse or just simply say they can’t. It makes me sad and mad at the same time.

I am feeling behind or ahead? I hate daylight savings time. There really any reason to have this anymore. The day of and the day afterwards I get behind or ahead in this case of the day. I hate it.

Something pissed me off. My friend April had her first fall off a horse. We always joke about it but I never really wanted to ever fall. She did and she is really hurt. On top of that her instructor made her get back up on the horse. The horse was so freaked out she almost fell again. I guess one of the rules of horse riding is you fall you get back up on the horse. It’s supposed to boost confidence well it had the opposite effect on April. I feel really badly for her.

She hurt her back and broke a finger. 

Also what really makes me mad is she was seeking council from other riders who have fallen. Somehow her teacher found out and called her and yelled at her. What kind of teacher does that? I have met this guy now several times and I think the last time we met was a fluke. Him being so nice and all. I am thinking he is a two face person. Sometimes I just get these feelings about people and he is one of them. I think it was unfair of him treating her like that plus by acting like an asshole he has hurt her confidence. I know she doesn’t want to quit and there really isn’t any other places she can learn to ride. I just hope it all works out for her.

Tis the season. Ugh! Can it be Halloween forever?

You know I don’t really like Christmas, haven’t since I was a kid. This year I am not going to work so hard at it.  It’s going to be a gift card Christmas. I am not making anything for anyone except Kaela and Adam.

Not for Christmas I made slippers for my parents. When I see them again I will give them to them.

The last couple of days I have been feeling a bit depressed and I haven’t felt this way in a long time. Ever since I changed my way of thinking I have kept depression away but I do have it. I have had depression since I was a teen because I was bullied really badly in school so I tend to think less of myself. I use to take medication for it but I decided to not take anything and to change my attitude, my way of thinking and my lifestyle to not make depression part of me. But for last few days it has been hanging around.

I have been feeling like others in my if are moving on and I am standing still. I’m not sure how to fix that. My BFF April is learning how to ride horses and one day she will have one. My friend Helen is learning how to play electric guitar and is getting good at it. Jeff started his own business and has a client he is working for. And me I have done nothing. I haven’t really learned any new skills that sounds great like them. I learned how to loom knit, who cares.

To add to my mental misery our Ford Escape died. We can no longer drive it or fix it. On top of that we paid some money towards that vehicle. We got the license renewed, had the oil changed and it was all for nothing. Now that we don’t have that vehicle I can’t go to this wedding I was looking forward too. We do have our truck however can’t really drive it in the winter. I have no idea how we are going to get another vehicle.

Ugh…I give up on this week.