Feeling emotional for a couple of days. As you know blog I try hard to be positive and try not to dwell but lately it has been unfair. And hard to do with what’s going on with April and my mom.

I feel badly for her. April has been going to the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota because they wanted to see if they can fix her throat. A couple of weeks ago she went to the ER because she couldn’t breathe and not stop throwing up. Scary! They said there is something wrong with the muscles in her throat. She has always had problems with her throat when she eats. When she eats she can’t get enough air in and she chokes a little. But now it’s so much worst.

While at Mayo she has been having everything tested. Her eyes, tumor on her brain and her throat. She has such a fear of needles and have been getting stuck like a pin cushion. Good news they didn’t find that tumor on her brain. It disappear because she has been doing awesome herbal stuff. Bad news there is something wrong with her eyes. They aren’t sure if it’s a tumor in her eyes.

On top of that her family hasn’t been the nicest either. I feel horrible for her and pray she will be okay.

It’s my mom again. So unfair she got to me. I try hard to not dwell on my mom. Sometimes she is great then other times she is like this. Last Friday August 19 2016 Jeff had the day off. My mom asked me if I could come down and take her to the doctors and dad too. I agreed. Jeff said he would come along wanted to go to Menard’s. I was happy he could come. I am horrible at directions. Jeff and I made a deal. I drive there, he drive them to their appointments then I drive home. We live about forty five minutes to an hour from them.

To get there on time we had to wake up at 4:30 in the morning. Early! Any way we drove them all around for hours. It was fine. Was happy to help out. But then she basically slapped me in the face this week. They are moving to an apartment as they sold their house and their house isn’t built yet. She asked me if I could help her this Saturday. I can’t Jeff’s birthday is Saturday. Then she said I never to do anything to help her.

WHAT?!!!!

Jeff on his day off and I went down last Friday and drove her to all her appointments. I could have said no. She could have asked Corey or Chrissy to help but guess what she didn’t. She asked me and like always I try to make it happen. To say I never do anything to help her is bullshit! I do a lot of things for her, to help her. It’s unfair she singles me out from the rest like always. She tries to make me feel bad and usually I am good at deflecting but this time I couldn’t. I feel sad and upset about this.

Unfortunately later today I am hanging out with her. I don’t really want too after this. But at the same time she is taking me to get my hair cut and colored. Then she wants to hang out with me for the rest of the day. I feel like canceling but I can’t. The lady who is cutting my hair I haven’t seen in years. She is very nice and I want to see her new place.

I know she only does to this to me. It’s unfair she does.

Last Saturday we helped my dad moved things from his house to storage. It sucked! It wouldn’t have been so bad if my parents didn’t have such an inclined of stairs. No wonder they rarely went down to their basement. My mom has bad knees and my dad has a hip problem. I will be happy when they move to their new place no stairs no basement. I know I am a young person and should be able to handle those stairs but carrying bins and basically going up hill is hard. Funny thing did happen. My brother in law was surprised how strong I was. I helped him move a heavy desk from one side of the garage to another. That wasn’t too bad and I have gotten stronger since I moved stuff all the time at my house. His look on his face was priceless.

Hopefully if the weather is nice this weekend. The Amish guy Melvin will come over and take out our chimney. Other than that nothing really else going on.

Saturday was a party for my cousin Alice she came to WI to show off her new baby. I so wanted to see Alice and baby Zarah. I love that name. I heard it years ago and always thought it was unique.

Anyway we went and for the first time we were the first ones at the so called party. It was strange. After about half an hour people started to show up. However it was an okay party. Alice finally came and I got to see the baby all for five minutes and that was it. Pity. I wanted to take a picture with me with the baby and never got the chance. Also didn’t get to talk to Alice for all that long either. I would say what party? Sort wish I didn’t go now. Really didn’t do anything but drink beer.

Also didn’t know but it was Alice’s first baby’s birthday. No one told us so here are some pics of him with his cake.

I did get this great pic of Alice and her mom Sue.

Love Aunt Sue the coolest Aunt ever!

Well beside the party per say I have gotten pretty far with Rick Grimes. I have three solid weeks to finish in time for Jeff’s birthday. I now think I can make it.

This past weekend Jeff got sick. Ugh. I really don’t want to be sick then again who does?

I am dumb and I am going to admit it. I figured out how to do Mallcrasher in Payday 2. I tried to do it like that guy I watched on the YouTube. I shouldn’t have done that and I never got far enough where they tell you how much you damage. So yeah. Should have known tried doing Firestarter like the YouTube video and I didn’t fair well so should have taken my own advice. Funny.

We decided to change our dresser. It has been through many moves and needs some help.

We are not done yet but getting there.

I went for a walk and I can’t believe this is near my house!

It’s so awesome! This trail used to be railroad tracks and they tore them out and made this awesome trail. Also there is a little bench too. I thought it was cute.

Early this morning I went for  a walk the other way down our street. There is a dead end not too far from our house. I like to go there and look out to see this.

What a great way to start a day.