Guess what?

I made it a hundred days without soda today April 14 2015! I am very proud of myself. I have to admit though I still think about drinking it. Now I know that I was addicted to soda.

It has become easier to say no to soda. Still a bit hard when we go out to eat but when I am at someone’s house, I don’t even have the urge to drink the soda they have. I even made it through Easter without drinking soda. That is an accomplishment.

However I do dream about drinking soda. That is sad to say that. I was that addicted to soda to think and dream about it. This has been very hard for me, especially when Jeff drinks soda or buys soda at the store. I like it when he buys the soda I hated drink anyways makes it easier to say no to it. It’s when he buys the really yummy soda that I know I love. But I am determined to not drink soda for the rest of the year. I want to say for the rest of my life but I have no idea what the future holds. I am going to try my hardest not to drink soda as often as I was.

My plan is not to drink soda just because or just because it’s there. Maybe for a treat but that is it. I really don’t want soda to ruin my life anymore. It’s hard on my teeth and already have horrible teeth problems. I dislike how it makes feel. I am really hoping that I can do this for the rest of my life, not drinking soda.

I am giving myself rewards that is not food or other drinks to encourage myself to make it to the next step. For making it fifty days I got Metro Last Light for my PS3. This time I will be getting Metro 2033 for my PC.

Let’s go for a hundred and fifty days!

Talk about themselves.

I have fallen in this trap, you know being human and all. I try not to talk about myself all that much. I actually encourage people to talk about them and keep the focus off of me. But what I hate the most is when I find out we have something in common or I want to ask a question. I can’t either say or I say and they just continue about themselves, ignoring me completely.

This happens to me all the time mostly with family. It’s quite annoying but I guess I am a bit to blame because I keep them talking about themselves. And let me tell you people love talking about themselves!

I noticed this happens a lot with younger people but also this happens when I talk to my parents. I did have one hurtful thing my mom did say. She told me that I talk about myself too much and about Jeff. Well I am sorry he is my life and I like to talk about him. I know what she was getting at and it’s always the same with her. I only want to hear if you have children and only about them. She never says that to my older brother and sister because they talk about their children all the time. For someone who doesn’t have kids it’s really stupid conversations or I should say one way conversations because that is what they are. I am sure if I ever have children I will talk about them. But I will try to remember not to talk about it so much if people don’t have children because I have been there.

Also when people talk about themselves too much and you have nothing in common with them. The conversations are so boring. I think to myself “wow this person is so boring. Wish I could leave this.” However if the person is older or likes to travel their stories are very interesting. I love hearing about the old days and how things use to be. Or where someone has been, what they have seen on their travels. They are very interesting. Sometimes I want them to talk for a long time. When this happens I ask a lot of questions to keep the conversation going.

I have to remember if the conversation is boring try not to ask too many questions. Sometimes I forget and the conversation goes on forever or becomes awkward. I hate awkward, I prefer forever boring conversation.

However I am not talking about conversations that are interesting those are the best but for me I seem to be talking to people who I have nothing in common with.

Always an adventure

I got to hang out with April on Thursday March 26 2015 to Saturday March 28 2015 and I can say it was quite an adventure.

First of all she was on time! What? We are rarely on time to hang out with each other. I figured out I haven’t been to April’s house since last year. That is a long time.

Let me tell you a little about my friend April. April and I met in high school. That would be in late nineties. April and I have been friends for almost twenty years. I can’t believe it! We always have the strangest and funniest adventures together.

It’s kinda funny because we gave her this cat when my mother in law died. I can’t have cats because I am allergic to them. I can be around them for a little while before hives attack me. Anyways the cat’s name is Dee. She knows me but when I came over a couple of times she would hide. This last time I came over she was out. I couldn’t pet her but she let me see her. Oh wow! That cat is a princess for sure. It’s funny! Also April has this Pomeranian dog name Marty. He is a funny little dog because he gets SO excited to see me and he runs around in little circles. Marty has the cutest fur too. He is just so cute! I love petting him. Now don’t get scared but April has pet rats. At first I was like what? But they are just so cute. Unfortunately I am highly allergic to them and can’t touch them at all even though I want too. They are the sweetest little animals. They have the tiniest hands awe! Yes April has a dog, cat, rats and they all live together in harmony. It’s cool!

April gave me my birthday present and last Christmas present. Wow! I got some cool stuff! Look I got Sherlock Cludeo which the British version of this game Clue. One of my favorite games to play. Also a Sherlock companion book, Doctor Who mug and Doctor Who necklace. Very cool gifts this year I got for my birthday from both of my friends.

April and I love Sherlock and Doctor Who. But April is a bigger fan of Sherlock which is good. This means I can learn things about Sherlock that I never knew. I have never read any Sherlock books only the one with the baker street irregulars. Those books are really good. However I have seen a lot of Sherlock series on TV and not just the one that is on now. And of course some movies including the ones with Robert Downey Jr.

On Friday March 27 2015 we were got up and had some gross cereal which is funny. I mean it wasn’t super horrible but it wasn’t good. We had Special K strawberries and chocolate. First there were hardly any chocolate pieces and the strawberries were freeze dried. They were gross! It’s funny because we both had huge bowls of it and we both hated it. Yet we ate some of it. Then we had to wait for her mom to be done with work. That was a fiasco!

April can’t drive so no car to go anywhere. And she like me lives in a small town no bus system. Anyways her mom comes in and tells us she can’t takes us anywhere because Heidi needs to go to the doctor. Heidi is Aprils little sister who is in her late twenties! Anyways April’s mom had to take her to the doctor because she wouldn’t go with her husband. What the hell! Because Heidi is too shy to go by herself. It did work out though. April’s mom took us to the places we needed to go and then we went with them to Heidi’s doctor appointment. But we didn’t have to wait with them. April’s mom dropped us off at a huge thrift store. I love thrift stores!

Since we hadn’t eaten anything since gross cereal we were starving so we walked to McDonald’s. It was the coolest McDonald’s I have ever seen. It was retro in there like from the sixties or seventies and it was the cleanest McDonald’s I have been in. Also everyone was super friendly. The McDonald’s near my house they aren’t the friendliest and it sure isn’t the cleanliness. Our McDonald’s floors are always sticky.

This thrift store was nice! I found some really cool items. But of course there are always weird people. April and I met a strange guy. He was talking to himself and then when he wanted to pass us. He tipped his hat and something in French. I am convinced I attract weird people everywhere I go.

I was on hot streak. Every game we played I beat her and that is rare because I hardly ever win at board games. Also I rarely win at Monopoly and I won. It was fun for me.

On the last day I helped her and her mom put together a Doctor Who puzzle that was fun. It was a cool puzzle and I don’t even like to put puzzles together.

It was a fun time and we had some neat adventures.

We may have found you.

I was disappointed because we went to look at that house again. The one I was so excited to have. We decided to look at it again. We decided that house wasn’t for us. I think I was glamored by us owning a house. There was so many things wrong with house that I didn’t notice before.

First walking in the bathroom and bedroom there was a huge hump in the floor. The basement was a separated living area. Going down there the ceiling was falling down. The ceiling had false tiles like in offices and some of them were stained. Yuck. Something was strange on how they covered the stairs in the basement. Also the stairs where all uneven. One step would be a big step and then the next step would be short. Very weird. I was so hoping to live there but I am glad we are not going to now.

Anyways we looked around some more. And I noticed after looking at a whole bunch of the houses start to look the same which is funny.

Jeff found a really great home. We went to look at it on March 29, 2015. WOW! It was so beautiful! I can see us living there. The house sits on a one acre of land. It’s a three bedrooms and two bathrooms. Big enough for all three of us plus our stuff. We loved it so much that we made an offer on it on the same day. I am trying not to be so excited because nothing has been accepted. But I am still excited. Crossing my fingers that this works out. (Meaning I hope it all goes well.) We will see.

Where will you be?

Maybe a couple of months ago Jeff asked me if I ever wanted to buy house. I have never bought a house and I have thought about it but I knew we couldn’t right now. Jeff has bought a house before and he and his dad built a house once. Of course I said yes and I said I guess we should start saving for one. Then a month later Jeff and his dad were talking about us buying a house someday and he said why don’t you look for one now? Jeff said we couldn’t afford it and then he dropped a bomb! Jeff’s dad Ken said that he would do the down payment for us and that we didn’t have to pay him back.

I couldn’t believe he would do that for us. I was in shock actually still in shock about that. Ken lives with us so we decided to look for a house for all three of us. Then Ken said that maybe one day he doesn’t want to live us because his dad is really old and his dad lives with his sister. You know if he would need his help one day or if he decided to get remarried. He told us to pick house that we would love and not to worry about him.

That opened up some great possibilities. There was this one house that I really loved from the photos and of course Jeff found a house he really liked. Friday March 20^th 2015 we looked the house Jeff liked first. We spent a half an hour there and the first time we went upstairs I hated it! I couldn’t wait to leave. Of course Jeff loved the house. Saturday March 21^st 2015 we looked at the house I loved. I loved it! Yes the house needs some work but all those things can be fixed. I love the lot because it feels like we were in the woods. The house inside was awesome. Plus side the basement is like a little apartment for Ken. It has a living, bedroom and a bathroom. And if he doesn’t live with us for a long time, my parents can come for a visit or guests can sleep down there. They also get their own bathroom which is always nice. Also we were thinking we turn the basement into a gaming area when he leaves.

We are all pretty excited to find a house maybe will be that one. (I hoping so.) No more renting will be awesome!

Most of you failed!

When us kids got older my parents started this tradition that everyone gets a birthday card and a phone call on your birthday. I loved that! And of course a present of some kind. It’s usually money. (Who hates money? I do not.)

Last year I was so disappointed that I didn’t get any birthday cards from any of my siblings. I always send them birthday cards for their birthdays. I have two brothers and a sister. Also I didn’t get any phone calls to wish me happy birthday which I always do for them. I was sad and angry about it.

This year since my birthday is in the beginning of the year I decided to conduct a test. The only birthday that is in January is my younger brother. After him it’s me then my older sister and then my older brother. I wanted to see you who would send me birthday cards and/or call me. Facebook birthday wishes do not count for them. I wanted to see if they would put in the effort.

Guess what most of them failed. The only person who contacted me was my younger brother. Everyone else failed. They all fail getting me a birthday card though. Well none for them either. I know this makes me sound like a whiny baby but I will not be the sensitive one about it anyone more.

My siblings and I are not close anymore and I am giving up on that ever happening again. Except for my younger brother we are cool.

 I got some cool stuff for my birthday this year!

My parents gave me money. I haven’t bought anything yet from them. My father in law also gave me money. I know what I want to get though. I am going to buy a fitbit with both of the money I got.

I told Jeff I wanted one thing for my birthday. There is this picture that Jeff took of him and Koko while they were waiting for me one day. It’s my favorite picture of my loves. I told him I wanted that picture blown up and in a frame. Here it is:

My friend Helen got me some wonderful things. She made me that blue beaded tree! I can’t believe it. It’s so beautiful. And I got this bear. She told me that someone hand made this. Wow! I really love this bear. She knows I love chocolate she gave a huge bar of chocolate. Of course I ate it and do not have a picture of it. Oh well! What I can say I love chocolate!

To me!

Today it’s Saint Patrick’s Day but also it’s my birthday! Today I am 32 years old.

When I was younger I hated that my birthday was on Saint Patrick’s Day because of the all the green and mostly all my birthday cakes were decorated in shamrocks and green. My parents thought it was cool to dress me up in green outfits, make me wear green shamrocks pins, those silly headbands with shamrocks on them. It was ridiculous!

When I was teenager and I didn’t mind it so much and started to have fun with it. I dressed myself in green, wore green shamrock socks and pins. Just to be silly!

However the real fun didn’t happen till I turned 21. Having my birthday on Saint Patrick’s Day means free drinks at the bars! Oh hell yeah! I totally took advantage of that. Got totally wasted on my 21sth birthday but it was fun. Also having beer that is green! I love green beer. Green beer is a tradition on Saint Patrick’s Day. All it is, is beer then green dye is added to make it green beer.

Now that I am older I do not do the bar thing. Sometimes I will go to bar but that is rare. Since I am married and my husband loves to cook. I ask for him to cook me a steak for my birthday and I still have green beer. I do the green beer myself. Yums!

Happy Saint Patrick’s Day!

Happy Birthday to me!

Derp!

Tuesday March 3 2015 I had a brain fizzle. I haven’t had one of those sine the 90’s. What’s a brain fizzle? It’s something I came up with when one day you wake up stupid. There is nothing you can do about it either. I guess it’s a way for your brain tell you that it needs a break.

Need a break from what? Need a break from thinking to damn much! I think about everything and anything also I have been trying hard to write a story that I want to publish eventually. Which requires a lot of thinking plus all the other stuff I got to do.

I forgot how a brain fizzle feels. It doesn’t feel like writers block even though I do have those. This feels like you are so dumb that you can’t even function. Multitasking was so hard to do on Tuesday and I love to multitask. The only time I am not multitasking is when I am reading a book, playing video games or sleeping. Otherwise I am always multitasking. Even when I am being lazy in my own opinion I am multitasking. Brain fizzle doesn’t allow multitasking because you can’t focus on anything. I literally stared in outer space for three minutes on that day before someone texted me. I was like where did that time go and where was I?

Even talking to Jeff was chore because I couldn’t remember anything interesting that had happened during the day. There was no point to Tuesday. I don’t even know why I got out of bed. It was a total waste of time. But then again, it gave my brain to restart.

On Wednesday March 4 2015 I felt better. I guess my brain needed a day off. Good thing it was on a day that didn’t have that much going on. I couldn’t imagine having a brain fizzle day when I had many things to do.

I don’t want to grow up.

I was thinking of two things I had to overcome s to be where I am now. Changing and growing is hard to do.

I much like my mom even though I hate to admit it sometimes. My mom can hold a grudge! You did something to her like twenty years ago she still remembers. It’s crazy! I was the same way. I could hold grudges for a long time as well. Around fourteen or fifteen I decided I wasn’t going to that anymore. It was hard to let go especially when it’s a supposedly a friend hurts you. But now I forgive more and let go. Even though sometimes I slip up and hold a grudge when I know I shouldn’t. But I no longer hold it for years.

This one is a new one for me. Like I have said before my dad was gone a lot when I was younger and that has affected me. When my husband Jeff has to work late for a long period of time or he has to work weekends instead of spending time with me, I get upset. Because it reminds me of my dad working all the time. I know it’s not Jeff’s fault he has to work long hours sometimes. This year I am working on just being fine with it and more understanding. Another thing that is hard to do but I just have to let it go because I know Jeff is not a workaholic like my dad. I know he rather spend time with me then work.

Changing my mind is hard to do sometimes because I have to change my feelings as well.