Everyone has fears like I am a afraid of going up a ladder. Why? I am afraid of falling and it hurting. Scary. I am also afraid of spiders. Not the tiny ones but dandy longs scare me. Yes I understand that they are tiny and harmless however I hate all those legs. I hate spiders and freak out when I see one.

However I have two great fears that I can’t control and they scare me greatly.

I am scared of getting Alzheimer disease. My grandma my dad’s mom had it and it was bad. It was sad that she couldn’t remember her sons and daughters. Seeing her like that made me wonder if that is genetic even though my dad said she was the only one in the family who got it. Still though it still scares me and now has become one of my greatest fears that I won’t remember when I get old.

They say doctors keeping the mind active now can help prevent that. So I try to keep my mind active. I really don’t want to not remember people or remember my life.

My second greatest fear is Jeff dying before me. What would I do without him? I would be so sad and depressed. I don’t know if I could live without him. I love him that much! It was so sad when my mother in law died. Jeff’s dad was so sad and made me fear that for Jeff. I really hope that if one of us dies the other one dies soon. Odd to think that way but it’s how I feel.

Fear is my least favorite emotion and having great fears is scary! These I can’t change because I don’t know the future.