Just some things I have been thinking about lately.

My teeth I have been thinking a lot about them lately. I just had that tooth pulled and it left a huge hole in my mouth. Much bigger than any of the other teeth I had pulled out. Also the dentist said that the tooth died and that is why I was in so much pain. I have never had a tooth die before. She said that it was all black on the inside of the tooth. And it broke into pieces when she was taking it out. I have never had that happen before. Usually it just comes out in one chunk. Since it’s so huge it’s been sore and painful. This tooth has caused months of months of pain and still hurts. Just a different kinds of hurt.

Eating. Since now my mouth mirrors itself. Meaning on the left side of the mouth I am missing two teeth on the bottom. Also on that is side the screw for my crown next month. On the right side of my mouth I am missing two teeth on the top. Eating is horrible. I eat like I do not know how to use my mouth. I try to stay positive about it. Saying well I am on a new diet it’s called I have no teeth to eat food with. But its true chewing is hard when you have no molars to break things up. I mostly use my front teeth. Try eating food with your front teeth.

Money. I think everyone worries about money sometimes. As you know my father in law Ken is engaged. Even though we are happy for him he put us in a position where we are like oh shit what do we do now? We all live in the same house and share rent. But since he only spends four days here and the rest of the week with his fiancé he wanted to have reduce rent. Jeff and I can’t afford this house on our own. This house is one of the more expensive houses to rent in our town as well. Also what is super crappy in this town there isn’t anything to rent EVER!!! It’ so rare to find a house to rent. And when one pops up you almost have to be quick to get it because houses for rent go fast. We can live here it will be a little tight. I wish he would have said can I have reduce rent in like so many months. Not I want reduce rent now. Would have been nice to have that little buffer in between so we could plan better. We are not sure what to do.

I wish I could have one month this year where I don’t have to think about things so much. Being an adult is hard. Sometimes I wish I could be a kid again in the summer. Where I didn’t have to worry about such things. Strange because when I was kid I dreamed of being an adult. Now that I am one, I want to be a kid again.