This is going to be a long one. I will start with the now and then head backward. Then go back to what I wasn’t ready to share but now ready to share. I feel good about our decision. But let’s go back to last week. On Monday 12-20-2021. We took the parents to see the Santa Rockin’ Lights. I was disappointed. It was shorter than the other years. We took a video in 2019 and confirmed that this year was fewer lights. Sad! However, it isn’t just about the lights. It’s the time I get to spend with my parents just us. We like that.
Then on Wednesday I was trying to move this heavy box and did something really stupid. I didn’t lift with my knees and hurt my back really badly. To the point, I couldn’t hardly move. I have hurt my back in the past but this was the worst I have ever done. So that meant I had to skip Christmas. Which really sucked. My parents came by the day before and celebrated a little with us and brought some presents. They brought our presents to give to everyone else. I was sad because I do like Christmas and giving presents. What made me sad was that no one called me. The only person to say thank you was Corey. Positive it was nice to not go to Christmas as well. It was bad outside and to drive an hour away would have been a pain. Plus I got to chill with Jeff. That is always the best.
This year went pretty fast, I have to say. I made a lot of things this year. That’s always fun. Let’s see I made a bunch of diamond paintings, made some Yodas with my looms, and did some cross-stitching. That’s a lot.
I fell off my diet and gained all my weight back and then some. Yes, I did. I ate whatever I wanted and only exercised sometimes. Jan 1st is Keto all the way. I never ever want to be this fat again. Even though it will be really tough it will be worth it.
Jeff and I are saying goodbye to adoption. Oh, I really wanted to have a child or children by the time I turned 40. Life has different plans for different people. As for Jeff and me, we decided to be kidless. We are happy being fur baby parents. It was a long and hard decision to make. We didn’t fully understand what it was like to have strangers poke in our lives and I mean they want to know EVERYTHING. We aren’t like that. We like to be private people not like we don’t have social media but not like that. That was CRAZY!
On top of that, they say that you are not buying a baby when you really are. They sell you on that. In total, we probably spent 3 thousand however if we were to get a baby and the legal fees all of that would have been around 20 grand. Who has that just around? Yes, you get some of that back from the government but that’s only if the child has been with you for some months. It’s so crazy to have that kind of cash on hand to adopt a child. We picked one of the lessor adoption agencies because cash was a real factor in what we could afford. Also felt like they weren’t in it for the money. However, if you got loads of money you can have a child in a year or two. That is how it goes. But of course, you are NOT buying a baby. Sure……
After coming to the conclusion that I don’t want or need to have kids to be happy. WOW, my whole mental health changed to be more positive. I was always a bit sad around Christmas because I thought of what it would be like when we would have a kid. But now I don’t feel that way. I don’t hate kids or anything like that. I see Jeff and me how we are now and it’s great. We have free time. I sleep in on Sundays. I don’t know if we save money. lol! But it’s pretty great plus we have Tex. Maybe another dog in the future not sure. But I see all the positives not of having children.
The hardest part was telling my parents that we are going kidless. We were surprised by their reaction they were cool with it. WHAT!!!??!! That isn’t my mom at all. But yeah she was cool with it. Wow!
This year like any year had ups and downs. I learned a lot this year more about myself. I know I grew more mentally and emotionally. (And physically but the wrong way. LOL!)
I’m looking forward to whatever 2022 will bring.
Goodbye, 2021!
